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    Unfortunately I've spent most of my life in abusive situations, and unfortunately it seems most of it has come from Gammas and Betas.




    // LONG READ: BACKGROUND DETAILS //



    Starting with an abusive (narcissistic) father (LIE) and enabling mother (ESI), but later including horribly abusive uncles (SLE and LSI) who I was forced to live with for 7 months, and a toxic grandmother (EIE) who enabled and supported them against me.

    14 years ago my first romantic relationship (2.5 years) was with someone who turned out later to be IEI (our problems suddenly made sense when I started learning Socionics around that time). He was distant and neglectful and later admitted that he had been routinely cheating on me.

    Shortly after that, I had an abusive (narcissistic) boss at work (SEE) for 5 years. Her boss (ILI) would do nothing but support her and ignore any issues I raised about the SEE's abusive conduct.

    Then in 2017 my life was almost completely destroyed by an abusive (again, narcissistic) lecturer (LIE) at the college where I was studying post-grad, along with his enabling subordinate lecturers (both ESI), and faculty (mostly Gammas) who were all happy to throw me under the bus and defend him despite clear evidence of his many abuses against me.

    I was also bullied at school for many years as a kid by a very toxic in-crowd that seemed (in retrospect) to consist of a lot of Betas and Gammas.

    As an empath and highly sensitive person (EII), I seem to attract these types of abusive people into my life. Somehow they perceive my kindness and gentleness as weakness to be preyed upon.


    // END BACKGROUND DETAILS //




    As a result of all of this, I'm very messed up.

    My experience with Betas and Gammas has been mostly terrible.

    So I am wondering.... what does HEALTHY Se look like?

    Or is this type of sh*tty behaviour just normal for Se-valuers?

    Do you guys see Alphas and Deltas as naturally weak and therefore deserving of exploitation and bullying?

    Or have I just had really bad luck?

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    @Hawkeye Can you be more specific on what the abusive and toxic behaviors were that you experienced? The only ones you mentioned so far are your IEI ex cheating on you, and some other people being enablers, which are actually relatively low Se activities.

    They say if it smells like shit everywhere you go, maybe start by looking under your own shoe as well...

    Where were the non-Se valuers in your life? Did they just sit back and watch you be abused? Is that not bad and enabling too? Or have you just never met a single non-Se valuer in your life (almost impossible)? In that case how would you be able to know the difference?

    If you perceive basically everybody around you as having been abusive towards you, the problem is coming from your expectations about people. Perhaps some of your early childhood experiences were traumatizing enough to do that, but you should still try to overcome being stuck in some mindset because of them. It doesn’t seem healthy. You’re effectively pre-emptively making enemies for yourself everywhere you go.

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    Quote Originally Posted by sbbds View Post
    @Hawkeye Can you be more specific on what the abusive and toxic behaviors were that you experienced?
    Sure.

    It's a long read tho, but here goes:



    LIE Father

    Narcissistic abuse including gaslighting (blaming me for things that are not even my fault), constant manipulation, corporal punishment for very slight issues (even though I was the most well-behaved of any other kid I knew), emotional neglect, never allowed to disagree with him on anything for fear of sparking narc rage episode, cursing and insulting me regularly, telling me regularly how pathetic and useless and disappointing I am, nothing I did was ever good enough (despite being an over-achiever at school). He never came to any of my events or awards ceremonies.

    At 18 he told me to pack my bags and piss off out of his house.



    ESI Mother

    Too terrified of father to stand up to him and support me, otherwise she would deal with fallout for days.



    SLE and LSI Uncles

    Frequently verbally abusive and reacted immediately with rage to any kind of disagreement I had with them.

    Forced me to pay more than half the rent of the expensive apartment we were living in together, even though I was a poor / struggling student and they were both working full time and earning tons of money.

    They would also play pranks on me constantly to the point where it became oppressive and I couldn't even get to sleep at night for fear of waking up covered in shaving cream or some other stupid thing.

    They also thought it was funny to keep me awake at night by constantly calling me, banging doors, turning the lights on and off, playing loud music or Tv etc. and basically refusing to let me sleep even though I had to get up at 6am.

    This happened routinely to the point where I had to move out and go stay with some friends.



    EIE
    Grandmother

    Abused my ESI mother for years, kicked her out of the house at 14. Wouldn't even tell my mother who her real father was.

    Constantly defends my uncles as if they are just having harmless fun and I am overreacting.

    Constantly scheming to get money out of my parents, sometimes using me as a pawn to that end, and constantly creating unnecessary emotional drama in the family by playing people against each other to get what she wants from them.



    IEI Partner

    Cheating, emotional and physical neglect. Would often leave me alone at home while he went out clubbing (including strip clubs) and partying. Would spend more time sleeping over at "friends'" places instead of at home with me.

    Let me pay his massive overdue power bill using all of my savings (they were about to cut off his power at Christmas). As a result, I was broke for several months after that, and when we were out with his friends I was unable to pay for drinks, food etc. The friends then treated me like some kind of pathetic homeless person, but he never defended me or told them the real reason I was broke. He was happy to save his own reputation at my expense.



    SEE Boss

    Narcissitic abuse, including playing people against each other to create chaos and tension in the office which she then could control and manipulate to her advantage (constantly spreading lies about what people were allegedly saying about others behind their backs).

    In front of her superiors, taking credit for all of our accomplishments, while never taking any responsibility when something went wrong (she always shifted blame to us).

    Offloading 99% of her work onto all of us while she sat and relaxed in the office all day, staring out of the window (my workload gradually doubled in the 5 years since she started).

    Meetings were all about giving herself a soap box where she could remind us in various ways how awesome she was and how useless and pathetic we all were, and constantly threatening to fire or collectively punish us if there were any complaints to her superiors or bad reviews in the employee feedback surveys.



    ILI General Manager

    Allowed the SEE boss to continue treating us like crap, and ignored (sometimes laughed) when we tried to bring it up with him.



    LIE Lecturer and Co

    Lecturer hated me from Day 1 because I came from an industry and job position that he himself had held. So he had this weird ego reaction where he needed to "put me in my place" and make sure everybody knew HE was the top guy, and I was nothing.

    He would constantly give job opportunities to other students and somehow forget to include me in the mailing list (despite being a top student, and despite that he had used my email address several times before).

    In my final 3-month project he was constantly interfering with the project team, inserting and removing team members, until it was only me left to complete a job designed for 4 ppl, and the project only ended up 60% complete as a result, for which he then blamed me for poor project management.

    He also openly stated in front of the class that the project was low-level trash that looked like it was just copied-pasted from the Internet (it was not, and everybody had seen me working my ass off on this thing from Day 1).

    He said if he was an employer, he would not touch me with a 10-foot barge pole, and cannot believe I had been working in this industry for so many years already. Just pure nasty insults in front of the entire class. (Everyone sat there, shocked.)

    He then failed me (despite being an A student up to that point, with a different lecturer), despite his admission that it was the biggest and most commercial-level project anyone has ever submitted in this course. The "official reasons" he came up with for failing me were bogus beyond belief, and everybody knew it.

    The other 2 lecturers (ESI) who were part of the grading process were employed directly by him, so their jobs depended on agreeing with him. Nobody stood up for me. It was a total gang-rape.

    To make it worse, I went to the college appeals committee (mostly Gamma from what I've seen) to get some justice, but they were all his long-time friends and coworkers and were happy to defend him and dismiss my complaints as baseless.

    On top of that, I was an international student at immediate risk of being deported based on these results, and they all knew it. They tried to use this to force me to pay them more money to re-do the course, which I refused.



    School Bullies

    The typical school bullying. I was locked in lockers, pushed around, and relentlessly made fun of for all kinds of stupid things. As a kid, that sort of thing really messes you up over time.

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    idk, get mad, set boundaries, reinforce them if ppl push past? Try not to become a Karen tho, nobody likes Karens lol.

    Se as far as I understand it is like volitional force. Ppl with Se get shit done, they like to compete and have an impact, they manifest willpower to achieve what they desire. I'm like this in crisis situations or when I want something or when there is something that needs to get done but ppl meander around the issue and annoy me, I'll just do it myself and drag everyone with me by simply being active and willful. Asking or being bossy doesn't happen tho. I might insult ppl if I think they deserve it for being weak & pathetic however, but that probably has more to do with my rational functions and judging process.

    I would never cheat tho, I'd just try and talk with my gf about problems and fix them or if that can;t happen I'd break off the relationship and be upfront about things. Imo ppl who cheat are worse than weak, fuckem.
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    Quote Originally Posted by sbbds View Post
    Where were the non-Se valuers in your life? Did they just sit back and watch you be abused?


    As a kid I only had a few of these in my life (usually a few friends at school) but never for long.

    We never stayed for long enough in 1 place for me to make long-term friends.



    My parents also took me out of school halfway through high school and I homeschooled the rest, so I lost that support base of friends.




    As a result, I now have Avoidant Personality Disorder where I don't let ppl get too close to me because it feels somehow "useless" (like it's going to end soon anyway, so why bother), or I am terrified of being mistreated again in some way.



    As I said in a previous post, I am now working in a place where it's 100% Delta, and the difference has been SHOCKING. The level of peace and harmony in the workplace feels like I've been transported to another dimension.

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    Quote Originally Posted by sbbds View Post
    If you perceive basically everybody around you as having been abusive towards you, the problem is coming from your expectations about people.
    No, admittedly there have been a few good people, notably 2 LIEs, one ESI and one LSI that I've worked with.

    But they still had a bit of a "rough" approach to dealing with things that made me somewhat uncomfortable.

    I also see a lot of their behaviour reflected in my parents' behaviour towards me, so that triggers me and makes me feel like I don't want to hang around such people for too long, because it feels like just a matter of time before their pushiness is directed towards me when something doesn't go their way.




    In short, I feel like I've become "scared" of Se.

    It's just way too triggering, based on everything I've been through.

    And I'm just wondering if this is just bad luck on my part, or if this is generally what to expect from Se going forward.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Hawkeye View Post
    But they still had a bit of a "rough" approach to dealing with things that made me somewhat uncomfortable.
    I’ve noticed similar things you noticed, so it’s not just you. Especially with LIEs and LSIs/SLEs. My (likely) ENTj grandfather couldn’t create harmonious relations even with his majoritarily gamma family. He had 3 modes of functioning: work and make money, criticize his children, find moral fault in everyone. The only one he could fully walk all over was my ESI aunt, who was devoted to him with her heightened sense of loyalty. Before dying, my grandmother made it clear she didn’t want to be buried anywhere near him. It sounds harsh and it’s sad that many people in the family have an unsavory memory of him when he built the family (financially) from nothing.

    Male beta STs want you to respect them but many times it's all castles in the air what they do, so you’re bound to disagree. Of course, I’ve seen them explode with anger when pressed to delineate their thinking or shut up. It’s as if they don’t want to be exposed. I just twist the knife and tell them I don’t see why I should respect them since they can’t think.

    And, as you said, they can have a sadistic streak. Expose them to sadism of your own and they get offended. Ask them why for them it’s allowed but not the other way around and watch then explode with anger because they can’t put forward clear thinking to explain why. See the vicious circle?

    I hope you get in the company of like-minded people and can finally live peacefully.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Hawkeye View Post
    Sure.

    It's a long read tho, but here goes:



    LIE Father

    Narcissistic abuse including gaslighting (blaming me for things that are not even my fault), constant manipulation, corporal punishment for very slight issues (even though I was the most well-behaved of any other kid I knew), emotional neglect, never allowed to disagree with him on anything for fear of sparking narc rage episode, cursing and insulting me regularly, telling me regularly how pathetic and useless and disappointing I am, nothing I did was ever good enough (despite being an over-achiever at school). He never came to any of my events or awards ceremonies.

    At 18 he told me to pack my bags and piss off out of his house.



    ESI Mother

    Too terrified of father to stand up to him and support me, otherwise she would deal with fallout for days.



    SLE and LSI Uncles

    Frequently verbally abusive and reacted immediately with rage to any kind of disagreement I had with them.

    Forced me to pay more than half the rent of the expensive apartment we were living in together, even though I was a poor / struggling student and they were both working full time and earning tons of money.

    They would also play pranks on me constantly to the point where it became oppressive and I couldn't even get to sleep at night for fear of waking up covered in shaving cream or some other stupid thing.

    They also thought it was funny to keep me awake at night by constantly calling me, banging doors, turning the lights on and off, playing loud music or Tv etc. and basically refusing to let me sleep even though I had to get up at 6am.

    This happened routinely to the point where I had to move out and go stay with some friends.



    EIE
    Grandmother

    Abused my ESI mother for years, kicked her out of the house at 14. Wouldn't even tell my mother who her real father was.

    Constantly defends my uncles as if they are just having harmless fun and I am overreacting.

    Constantly scheming to get money out of my parents, sometimes using me as a pawn to that end, and constantly creating unnecessary emotional drama in the family by playing people against each other to get what she wants from them.



    IEI Partner

    Cheating, emotional and physical neglect. Would often leave me alone at home while he went out clubbing (including strip clubs) and partying. Would spend more time sleeping over at "friends'" places instead of at home with me.

    Let me pay his massive overdue power bill using all of my savings (they were about to cut off his power at Christmas). As a result, I was broke for several months after that, and when we were out with his friends I was unable to pay for drinks, food etc. The friends then treated me like some kind of pathetic homeless person, but he never defended me or told them the real reason I was broke. He was happy to save his own reputation at my expense.



    SEE Boss

    Narcissitic abuse, including playing people against each other to create chaos and tension in the office which she then could control and manipulate to her advantage (constantly spreading lies about what people were allegedly saying about others behind their backs).

    In front of her superiors, taking credit for all of our accomplishments, while never taking any responsibility when something went wrong (she always shifted blame to us).

    Offloading 99% of her work onto all of us while she sat and relaxed in the office all day, staring out of the window (my workload gradually doubled in the 5 years since she started).

    Meetings were all about giving herself a soap box where she could remind us in various ways how awesome she was and how useless and pathetic we all were, and constantly threatening to fire or collectively punish us if there were any complaints to her superiors or bad reviews in the employee feedback surveys.



    ILI General Manager

    Allowed the SEE boss to continue treating us like crap, and ignored (sometimes laughed) when we tried to bring it up with him.



    LIE Lecturer and Co

    Lecturer hated me from Day 1 because I came from an industry and job position that he himself had held. So he had this weird ego reaction where he needed to "put me in my place" and make sure everybody knew HE was the top guy, and I was nothing.

    He would constantly give job opportunities to other students and somehow forget to include me in the mailing list (despite being a top student, and despite that he had used my email address several times before).

    In my final 3-month project he was constantly interfering with the project team, inserting and removing team members, until it was only me left to complete a job designed for 4 ppl, and the project only ended up 60% complete as a result, for which he then blamed me for poor project management.

    He also openly stated in front of the class that the project was low-level trash that looked like it was just copied-pasted from the Internet (it was not, and everybody had seen me working my ass off on this thing from Day 1).

    He said if he was an employer, he would not touch me with a 10-foot barge pole, and cannot believe I had been working in this industry for so many years already. Just pure nasty insults in front of the entire class. (Everyone sat there, shocked.)

    He then failed me (despite being an A student up to that point, with a different lecturer), despite his admission that it was the biggest and most commercial-level project anyone has ever submitted in this course. The "official reasons" he came up with for failing me were bogus beyond belief, and everybody knew it.

    The other 2 lecturers (ESI) who were part of the grading process were employed directly by him, so their jobs depended on agreeing with him. Nobody stood up for me. It was a total gang-rape.

    To make it worse, I went to the college appeals committee (mostly Gamma from what I've seen) to get some justice, but they were all his long-time friends and coworkers and were happy to defend him and dismiss my complaints as baseless.

    On top of that, I was an international student at immediate risk of being deported based on these results, and they all knew it. They tried to use this to force me to pay them more money to re-do the course, which I refused.



    School Bullies

    The typical school bullying. I was locked in lockers, pushed around, and relentlessly made fun of for all kinds of stupid things. As a kid, that sort of thing really messes you up over time.
    First of all I’m very sorry that you’ve had all these experiences. Your family is definitely super fucked up, and it can be hard to find better experiences and hard to get out of messed up situations like that.

    You said that your IEI ex was a guy. So are you a girl, or a gay male? If you are the latter, do you think that had anything to do with how you’ve been treated? If you’re the former then I’d be very surprised.

    As for the bolded, where were you studying and where were you originally from?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Hawkeye View Post
    No, admittedly there have been a few good people, notably 2 LIEs, one ESI and one LSI that I've worked with.

    But they still had a bit of a "rough" approach to dealing with things that made me somewhat uncomfortable.

    I also see a lot of their behaviour reflected in my parents' behaviour towards me, so that triggers me and makes me feel like I don't want to hang around such people for too long, because it feels like just a matter of time before their pushiness is directed towards me when something doesn't go their way.




    In short, I feel like I've become "scared" of Se.

    It's just way too triggering, based on everything I've been through.

    And I'm just wondering if this is just bad luck on my part, or if this is generally what to expect from Se going forward.
    Obviously the answer is no, not all Se people are abusive, but you aren’t going to be convinced by hearing that. The only thing that would change your mind is to eventually get closer to people who are “good” Se valuers. It sounds like you’ve found a good workplace now. How many people are there? The greater the number (like over 5), the less likely is is that they’re really ALL deltas. If it’s more than a small group then it’s highly likely that it’s a mix of people including Se valuers.

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    Se people are basic tools of society. Yeah, they're tough, but so are orcs in fiction. They're just good for fighting and dying.

    I don't think there's much healthy/unhealthy. It's just what it is, Se valuers might see it as the best thing ever, non-Se valuers might see it just like I described.

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    There are weak/strong functions what leads to fiting social norms or not. There are valued and nonvalued what may have similar influence. Nothing else.

    The most significant Se you get from Se ego types. Their problem is not Se, but other functions which are weak or not valued.

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    You seem to have ran across a lot of shitty ppl in life. 3 things tho:

    1) Not here to deflate your balloon, but these typings can be wrong.

    2) Is it really productive to blame Se types for all this misfortune?

    3) Will this victim mentality be helpful to you in the long run?

    Idk maybe its just me, but the best revenge imo is to live well despite all that crap, on your own terms.
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    Isn't it kinda obvious?

    Healthy Se is idk, (consensually of course, even though the word 'consensual' sounds like a STD in and of itself to me) stroking somebody's ass the way they like it. In a way that's not politically correct or too boring and just hot.

    Unhealthy Se is actually molesting or raping somebody to see how it feels just because you have some weird temporary Ni fantasy to do so? Like a SLE male doing something stupid and then the police sirens coming lol. Or not controlling your own impulses. You felt like punching somebody and so you did, whereas it would be more wise to just manipulate them from a distance and play the 'I'm a better person than you are' game with them.

    Healthy Se = hot gay sex.
    Unhealthy Se = going full dahmer!


    Female SLE... unhealthy Se can maybe more like being too bullying and High School Mean Girl-like or something. Which is kinda similiar to EIEs but a bit different.

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    OP, I was bullied a lot too. I think a lot of what you think of as bullying is NTR but here is how I personally came out of that:

    1. I just lived my life. I tried doing some new things even though I didn't completely want to.
    2. I didn't tell people everything about me. Boundaries are your best friend. If somebody wants to know something personal or private about you they usually just want to use it against you for their own career or something. Don't fall for the 'just tell me, I really care!' manipulation. The more I did this the stronger I became... and the more I was ready to tell people I was closer with the real truths about my own heart and internal world. Knowing what you can tell and who is a life strategy that prevents a lot of bullying. As much as you want to care and share, just be wise to understand as soon as you express a real vulnerability with anybody you are giving them ammo to hurt you by the very nature of the beast. It's not that they are bad and you are good (even though sometimes that will be the case lol) - it's just sorta how reality is.
    3. I wasn't bullied so much because I was too gentle and kind, but because I wasn't brave enough TO BE these things myself in the first place. So before you play innocent, are you for sure this wasn't also the case with you? Do you outwardly show your niceness as much as you possibly can or do you just have this ego of 'I'm a good and gentle person?' The former is good but the latter causes problems with others IME. "Being gentle and nice" isn't some passive victim-y thing in the prison of your own head, it's a real warmth other people need to see!
    4. Even if I was 'bullied' I probably didn't care, because I was just happy living my life.
    5. And flat out, I was just around nicer and better and higher society people really. It wasn't just 'all on me.' Being in a toxic envrionment sucks but we do have a choice how often we stay there for. Avoiding toxic things all together doesn't work because then you just get bullied by everything anyway, but you have more control of how long people stay in your head more than you think.

    People who aren't bullied... are brave enough to love, and strong enough to say 'no.' Both bullies and victims are two sides of the same coin that are trapped in an unhealthy cycle.

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    @ OP ^ FWIW I was bullied a lot too by people around me (and family) and can attest to the above ...

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    I am so sorry you had to go through all that! And also knowing that you may encounter more people like this, it sucks. I'm curious what area do you live in? I know certain places in America are very se valuing, if you live here. I guess unhealthy se can manifest as them seeing our weakness in se and expressing it in harmful ways, for example calling out our mistakes.
    I myself have had good and bad experiences, it's interesting how you have had such awful one's with LIEs. It seems like LIEs are one of my favorite se types as I tend to get along with them the best. I can see how they can be cruel though or it's hidden beneath them. For me it's my supervisors that bother me. Two SEEs I've known just would say what ever they felt and it's clear to me they lack the openness to understand someone else's situation, or what they may be going through. < that part you can probably resonate too of you interactions with those sort of people. I just have to move on with my life though and not let it effect me so deeply later on, even if it does in that moment.
    I had my friends SEE mother who berated me, my own overbearing abusive EIE mother(knew another EIE who just used me and I was very naive then to realize), I had an SLE friend who harassed me in school, and my entire friend group was also se valuing, besides my one IEE friend who tried to console me. But you know, part of it was feeling some sort of deep empathy that oh, maybe they are struggling inside and at one point I thought I deserved it. We have to learn how to stand up for ourselves, to know we are always gonna encounter these kind of people (and if it's very bad obviously do what you need to do, whether that is to leave the toxic situation, or report them, and to not give in to people who have harmed you, even if they are trying to act kind. Of course, some people deserve second chances but at some point it's best to realize that person is never gonna change. We just have to let it go what they said or did, and go on.
    Last edited by youfloweryourfeast; 11-25-2022 at 05:53 PM.

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