For a long time, I've been 'trained' to be more happy and emotionally expressive than I really am, and whenever I allow myself to act that way, I regret it later.
Do any other LIIs know what I mean?
The Filatova description is, I realize, who I am at best. Now, I can be cold and distant but still social and leadership orientated.
But the habitual process makes me become more extroverted and socially flailing ....
So it almost seems like a trick to still remain 'yourself'