Yeah, I never understood people who do that. I've always been an "out of sight, out of mind" type of person. I wouldn't bother someone just to wish them happy whatever. That is, if I remembered in the first place.
Maybe I have issues with object permanence and am really just a child.
Very attractive (I'd totally hit it). Has a frantic sort of energy which makes me think EP temperament. Reminds me a little of an ILE chick I used to know.
Haha. I don't remember saying any kind words, but hey, I'll take the praise.
(And don't forget to text me for my birthdays.)
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“Whether we fall by ambition, blood, or lust, like diamonds we are cut with our own dust.”
Originally Posted by Gilly
Today a VST version of one of my favorite synth ever namely the Elka Synthex has been released. I don't own the physical version of that rare and very expensive synth from the early 80's. That said, there are other emulations of the synth out there, but this one was made by Arturia (a French company !) and I really like their products. Normally I'd be very excited by this news. I am but just a bit, not enough to wanting to put my home studio together and make music again (I still play my unplugged electric guitar everyday though, I don't want to lose my chops !).
What worries me the most is that for the last two or three days my obsession with the seppuku rite has come back to invade my thoughts. I think about it a lot but my problem is that I can't do it alone. I need an assistant (a Kaishakunin) for the "coup de grâce". I have my pride and I've always wanted to leave this world with honor. I talked about the seppuku imagery that keeps haunting my mind to my psychiatrist a while ago, he said nothing about it.
I'm sure I've used some VST by Arturia, I just can't remember which one. Did they have a grand piano sample library? I think I had an old school Moog VSTi which might have been by Arturia.
“Whether we fall by ambition, blood, or lust, like diamonds we are cut with our own dust.”
Originally Posted by Gilly
Something similar happened to me just the other day when I played this song (from an album I have but haven't listened to in years, maybe close to a decade):
I close my eyes and it takes me to a different place and time. Why or how it evokes such strong emotions in me is impossible to explain. Sorrow, grief, melancholy, hope, longing, sadness, joy, serenity... it's all there. The way the instruments and the vocal blend together creates such a rich, delicate, and poignant experience. Listening to music like this feels very similar to watching movies with deep and heartfelt themes and stories. And sometimes, like the other day, it hits so deep it literally hurts.
Last edited by Park; 10-09-2024 at 05:35 PM.
“Whether we fall by ambition, blood, or lust, like diamonds we are cut with our own dust.”
Originally Posted by Gilly
Yes, probably the Minimoog V is there first synth (the first of a long series of vintage synths emulation !). Native Instruments also made really good vintage synths (I still have their Prophet 5 emulation from back in the days !).
Arturia have Pianos it's called Piano V, but it doesn't use samples but rather Physical modeling, it's very meh...
By the way, since I discovered Modartt Pianoteq years ago (back when it first came out) I don't look at anything else in terms of piano. Maybe you have heard about it, Pianoteq is imho the best piano emulation in the industry. It is all based on physical modeling but has an unmatched expressivity (basically 127 layers of velocity (each by midi velocity cc !)). With a good 88 keys keyboard it feel great. It's very light in size (instead of of hundreds of Gigs you find in sample library based piano) and its cpu consumption is ridiculously light too. You should try it if you haven't already. I don't have the latest versions of that VSTi though.
I've never understood the concept of getting stone/high or drunk in order to forget the misery of life, pain etc... I've never had these kind of thoughts/ideas in my whole life. That said, since I quit smoking six years ago or so, I feel more depressed than ever. I must also add that I've always been a big consumer of sugar. Up until about six years ago, I used to put five and a half lumps of sugar (rectangular, not cubic !) in my cup of "café au lait". Back then, I used to drink four café au lait a day (wake-up time), but now I drink three a day and the caffeine content has to be taken into account too, as I drink the whole content of my 6-cup Italian coffee maker every day. Since then, I've cut back to between 1 lump + 3/4 and 2 lump + 5/7. I'm diabetic btw. So, quitting smoking and reducing my sugar consumption had a huge impact on my mental health, not for the better I should add.
That said, for some time now I've been very attracted to the alcohol aisle at the mall and I look at the products with a certain interest. I'm thinking that maybe it won't help me feel better, but rather help me feel less depressed and motivated to do things again. I'm muslim and if a family member see alcohol in my house that would be problematic for me. I have this image of piety that sticks to me (but I feel more like this dude) and I don't like to be judge and/or sermoned and having to justify myself. Fortunately, I rarely have visitors.
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Yes, I'm aware of Pianoteq. But I've never really liked it. It always sounded tinny and synthetic to me, no matter the preset or configuration of their millions of adjustable parameters. I've heard samples of the newer versions and it's obvious they've made progress. However, based on everything I've heard and played myself, I still prefer the sound of high quality sample-based virtual pianos, such as the Ravenscroft 275, Garritan CFX, and Vintage D. The VSL Synchron pianos are pretty good, too, it's just that their out-of-the-box presets are somewhat sterile and lifeless. And I believe they are extremely resource intensive.
The only modeled pianos I actually like are the ones found in Roland's latest digital pianos, namely the new GP and LX series. But I think Roland is lying—or at least they are being sufficiently obscure in their marketing to suggest—that these pianos use "pure modeling," where in reality I have an inkling they are still drawing from their old Steinway samples (or some other, newer samples) and building their sound on top of that. It's possible they've come up with a way to replicate the original/reference audio samples algorithmically, or they are using some kind of a hybrid approach. I say this because some of the main piano patches sound uncannily "real" and have somewhat of a similar tonal quality to how their old "SuperNATURAL" engine (which was sample based) sounded.
“Whether we fall by ambition, blood, or lust, like diamonds we are cut with our own dust.”
Originally Posted by Gilly
Muslims are so hypocritical about their relationship with booze and pork. Just like they would say it's against their religion to lie and deceive but then will try to swindle you in the cheapest ways possible. But just like their counter-examples, these are nothing but stereotypes and generalizations. People are people, and they will do what they want to do. Religion just poisons everything.
“Whether we fall by ambition, blood, or lust, like diamonds we are cut with our own dust.”
Originally Posted by Gilly
Alcohol makes me happier than almost anything else I experience when I'm sober. Caffeine makes me feel sick and disoriented, sugar makes me nauseated if I consume too much, but alcohol, for all its bad effects on health, makes me feel good like little else. Even when I'm no longer intoxicated, or even when I'm hungover, there's a pleasant effect that lingers for a while after drinking.
Different drugs affect different people differently, though. Your mileage may vary.
I didn't realize until very late that I had lost large parts of my autobiographical memory. In 1996 I had a serious asthma attack that put me into a coma. But I didn't realize until a few years ago that I had lost some big shunks memory and linked it to the after-effects of the coma. I mentioned it to my psychiatrist very recently, but he didn't comment on it. I never talked about it to any doctor before, I might have evoked it to one of my siblings very briefly but I didn't made a big deal about it. I think I underestimated the consequences of this memory loss on my mental health. It's really strange to know that events in my life did happened without having the visual memory.
For instance, when I read @Braingel about her volleyball background, It reminds me that when I was a kid (around 14 years old) in junior high school (collège in French) I won with my school volleyball team a regional championship. I know it but I only have one or two very small flash of that time in my head. When I try to remember it all I see is the volleyball gym and one of my classmates whose name I've forgotten. I know I was a good hitter.
Same thing with the photography club of my Junio high school that I joined for a while. All I remember is a red room (darkroom) and some picture hanging here and there.
My biographical memory is more like a gruyère than a sponge, it's full of holes ! And yet, a few years after my coma, I was able to memorize the whole Quran*...
Edit 2 : * I forgot a lot about the Quran since I lost faith and became an agnostic Muslim. Also I believe that I have like an early alzheimer disease (did I mentioned that I'm a bit hypochondriacal ??!!) so testing the state of my memory has been an area of great anxiety for me. Any indication of difficulties to remember would confirm my (paranoic !) diagnosis. However when I find the courage to try to remember some Surahs that I haven't practiced since a long time, the verses come back and with them the visual of the pages like out of nowhere (I have like a photographic memory (sort of, but not really because I combined visual, audio and the muscle memory of the tongue so to speak (I bet you never heard about it !)). This tends to relieve my memory loss anxiety but only for a little while cuz it keeps coming back. Not to mention my pathological tendency to forget people and fictional characters names...
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Sort of thinking active and passive memory. Whatever memory actually is... where does it even come from. I find it that it is hard to lose the stuff have encountered and remembered, really. I have problems when it comes to reciting things point by point, which I find too banal. I was verbally tested on this as in not having understanding of it. I couldn't do it at first, then I saw the same book with the same outline where the information was, and I was able to tell everything about it.
It is like you don't need to verbalize the procedure when you tie your shoelaces either, it would be nonsencial to claim that the knowledge of it requires that you hold the procedure in your head as a code snippet that you interpret every time.
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I am in the process of renewing my identity card and passport, and yesterday I did the laundry...
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Today I had my first session with my psychologist. It went well, I liked his energy right away. I told him my life story (an overview of the good the bad and the ugly) in one session. 40 minutes is not the usual 5 minutes I spend with my psychiatrist....
I think my psychologist liked me too. I have to say that in real life when I actually talk to people I rarely leave them indifferent, they generally like me. Anyway, I look forward for the next session.
Edit : I've spend a while trying to figure out who my psychologist reminds me of and then I saw a commercial in which this dude called Julien Guimon is playing. He looks very much like my psychologist.
I hope the video is visible
Btw, every time I go out it's an opportunity for me to realize that I still attract women's attention. I look younger than my age and I can see that some girls in their early twenties are staring at me with desire. I prefer older ladies though but I'm not in a place where I can think of such things. I'm hikikomori after all. I don't forget that I'm a weirdo, having an asocial partner is a no no for any normally constituted lady....
To be continued...
Last edited by godslave; 10-21-2024 at 08:47 PM.
Since I was a teenager, I've learned to hide my potential from people. I don't like to stand out or, as some would say, “sell myself” and ostentatiously demonstrate whatever skill or knowledge I've acquired with time. Indeed, as far as I'm concerned people's interest in me has always been a cause of trouble because once they know that you might be "useful" in something you get not only labeled but also solicited. I really dislike that because well, when people solicit you it's more often than not in their best interest... It's a "free" service they ask and it takes your precious time. At least this is how I experienced it. The strategy I adopted is to keep a low profile and address people with the bare minimum of words. The less they know about me, the better off I am. My problem is that I'm too nice and once a certain level of psychological closeness has been established, it's hard for me to say “no” to people.
The day before yesterday, I bumped into my next-door neighbor, a family man in his sixties. He started talking to me with a certain familiarity. Asking me if I was comfortable in my apartment, that it was one of the best in building, that there's nobody above you, it's quiet. I thought "Wow, wait a minute ! Aren't your children who have their bedroom just above me ??! (cause his apartment is a duplex) Jesus Christ, they used to play soccer over my head almost everyday at freaking 1 a.m. and you know it so what the freak are you talking about ?? Are trying to manipulate me or something ? ". But I didn't say anything and I was a bit confused. he continued and asked me if my mother and family was all right, and so on...
We were each about to go home (the door to his apartment is right really next to mine) when he asked me about the arab country of my origins. My answer matched what he already knew. He told me he would like to have a carton of cigarettes from there. He said he kept some money from the last time he had been to that country and that he would like to use it buy cigarettes since they are much, much cheaper there . I said : “I'll talk about it to the next member of my family who goes there". I thought, “I knew he was going to ask me for a favor ! Let's give him a diplomatic answer so that I don't have to talk much and then forget about it all together !"...
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Today I went to my monthly psychiatric consultation. I informed him that I had begun my “work” with the psychologist and he was pleased. I told him about the fact that I still had this obsession with seppuku. He asked me if I was interested in Japanese culture, and I said yes I had been for a long time. I told him that I'm still struggling with finding the motivation to actually live my life (to find my "élan vital" in French). I said that I didn't even have a couch at home and that three quarters of my moving boxes had not been unpacked yet, even though I have been living in my apartment since the beginning of 2019. I said that the first thing I do in the morning is to think that I'm still alive (I almost added unfortunately but I hope he get what I meant).
I literally told him "I am in suffering". He, as usual, is always typing on his computer while I'm speaking (basically the whole session) so he has instant access to all my info, he said that I didn't want to take pills and looked at me as if waiting for a confirmation. I answered that I already take pills for my hypertension , diabetes, gastro-oesophageal reflux, and my asthma treatment which contains corticoids and might have a incidence on my mental health because I have been taking it since around 2001 (I told him that on the last session too). By the way, I'm afraid of "psychiatric pills" but now I got to the point where I wonder if I should ask him to prescribe me some the next time. I also evoked some issue I had in the past because of my sarcoidosis treatment back in 2004 like osteoporosis (in my twenties !). Oh, and I also informed him about the fact that I'm renewing my identity card and passport, "that's very good !" he said. Anyway, like I said, he was happy to know about that I started a therapy with the psychologist...
To be continued...
Last edited by godslave; 10-25-2024 at 07:38 PM.
I want your life to be more enjoyable. Not trying to be some asshole. Here: www.stopsarcoidosis.org/exercise/
Thank you for your kind words.
My sarcoidosis is "off" as they say since around 2009 but it's a chronic disease so you never know. At least the last time I checked it was off. I forgot to mention it in my previous post but in the last session my psychiatrist asked me when was the last time I checked my sarcoidosis "state" and I say 'It has been more than 10 years" but I was referring about my last chest scan and I forgot to mention the following : About two years ago I asked my doctor to prescribe me a blood exam (angiotensin converting enzyme dosage which is the marker of the disease) and it was okay.
I was affected mainly in the lungs, but also in the heart and liver to a lesser extent. Today I'm doing well and I've even decided to re-practice martial arts again (on my own I haven't joined a club of course !) just to get the feeling back (I was a Bruce Lee clone in my youth lol). I'm focusing on my kick technique and I'm making progress every day, I'm kinda invested. Anyway, thanks again.
You can eliminate microplastics from your diet, which disrupt hormones and result weight gain and cardiovascular issues that can’t be helpful for diabetes, check my moving minds movement thread..
You can also look into a more plant-based diet which is known to reduce diabetes and even reverse it. I go to a juice chain of a woman who claims to have reversed he friend’s diabetes with juicing:https://youtu.be/PSHb_tEz3vw?si=36yYXWcfVkJh_nyh
If you can’t have the will of your own, look into hypnotherapy, you’d have high suggestibility/transliminality..
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It’s not just about diet, but also air quality and what you wear and your hygiene products for eliminating plastic intake that absorbs in..
Also no, I don’t have diabetes, I just have a large interest in holistic health and whilst I am not good at overall keeping up with everything about my health, I try and do what I can to improve my health and look after the health of those I love.. Si super ego (in some models, hidden agenda).
Of course treating the emotional causes into this is paramount, but you’re already getting interventions. You, whether it is more helpful can envision yourself to the future eating healthier, or revert into time to undo when you developed the habit. What works will be dependent on your own personality, perhaps Ni+ versus minus to an extent.
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Damn, God Slave, I just read-skimmed this.. It is really vital that you eliminate plastics from your diet (and life in general). There has gotta be some systemic issue, likely ptsd is an aggravator of a stressed nervous system and depression slagging care of health, but there is something deeper, some substance is likely aggravating, or even something like a tick bite.. You should test for things like mold poisoning, tick bites with specialized tests.. It can be a plastic ordeal or poor air quality, I won’t assume.. Whilst some of this is psychological, I can’t say that this amount of a constellation is, and there is a pointing towards something that is spurring your body into a defense mode, these side effects are here to alert you of that.. Something like sleep apnea can also offset weight gain and asthma issues..
I can see how ptsd can root in some of these, but with all of these things, it is some culprit resulting in the expression of your genetics to go into their lowest potential.
Your hormones feel jacked and not able to absorb things well, like vitamin D..
Whilst I am no doctor, the last thing that needs with this presentation is more medication to mask, probing needs occur to find the epicenter/culprit for the systemic flare that feeds into it. It may be several culprits, like some aggravator disrupting the flow and the ptsd tying in, poor sleep from ptsd and all.. Abnormal hormonals from cortisol excess.. Doctors just aimlessly throw on pills with their often Ni polr, and don’t look at the onset of when, the patterns, the dynamics of how these symptoms interplay one another and as an alert mechanism.. Symptoms, rather than conditions.
Some of the medications may have even created these new symptoms, I won’t call them conditions, because they are symptomatic of a culprit or several ones and are referred by this..
If I was your doctor, I would be looking at things like:
- Mold poisoning
- allergy sensitivity
- hidden infections (especially in the oral cavity with dental work)
- sleep apnea
- absorption disorders
- vitamin deficiencies
- tick bites
And would be looking at when these things onset in their order of cause and effect.. And of when they worsen or improve.. And how much ptsd could’ve contributed to the downfall with poor sleep and cortisol excess, as well as with psychosomatic allergy sensitivity at the unconscious, and an overall health disregard and let go. Some of that can be it, but it isn’t any way, with osteo merely just on this and the asthma.. PTSD is likely an aggravator that feeds into the dynamic of potentially several dynamics that feed off of one another.
I honestly believe that Ni egos and especially the Si role ones make better doctors for long-term, systemic problems.. Sensory doctors are better for immediate needs generally, like immediate need for surgical intervention, or an acute infection to treat with antibiotics, but ideally a person long-term builds their immunity up.
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I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
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Thank you for your time words and advices.
To be honest, I was a huge sugar consumer since I was kid. I used to put five sugar rectangles (almost twice the size of the cubes) in my bowl of café au lait, not counting the chocolate biscuits that go with it. I used to consume three large cups of café au lait a day until about six-seven years ago, when I gave up smoking. Since then, I've reduced my consumption to between one and a half and almost three a day sugar rectangles per cup of café au lait, depending on the period. I think my sensitivity to sweet taste is genetically conditioned, so when I feel it less I increase my consumption and when I feel it too much I decrease it. I think my body knows what it's doing...
As for my treatment, I take my anti-diabetic medication every day : one Janumet 50/1000 morning and evening (well my circadian rhythm is messed up so morning and evening is relative to my notes (I write down the time of each take of my medicines, I have my own system)). I just stick to that without worrying about my diet. I'm not the kind of person to deprive myself or check the composition of food if I ever feel like eating it, in fact I don't mind eating some so-called "junk food" if it taste good and I like it, I don't really care. That said, I'm a bit of a minimalist. I usually only eat one meal a day and not every day. It all depends on my energy expenditure ; I've noticed that since I've started practising martial arts again, I'm a bit hungrier than usual, but that's all perfectly logical !
There is still some metabolism issue, possibly smoking and the sugar beat down your body and altered how it works, but now that’s an issue and it would shoot the osteo.. Some meds affect absorption as well, and if you take some foods with them, they cancel out the med or block something from absorbing.
Your core 9 coping mechanisms dulled your body and now it altered its ability to work and absorb, or the meds given do or how you eat and it interacts with them.
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
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Obviously, the asthma would compound by the smoking.. But the root issue for many of your problems is some mal-absorption (that yes, started with likely ptsd means for you to be on meds, but now the actual issue is with how you’re eating, not just stress and comfort eat, but you’re blocking), that now with this info given, is probably having do with the med combos you’re given and if not on the meds alone, how you’re eating combined with those medicines..
When I told you in another thread that I thought about being a holistic doctor a lot (over-identification with Si role), I wasn’t kidding. I just don’t have the conscientiousness for that and the process of that crap. A lot of it I intuit on my own and piece things together..
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
Dragons:
Babies, click them to make them grow up into Kara’s Dragon Museum
My favorite adult Museum Exhibits
I'm not sure if I'm core 9 anymore. However, it is true that I have recurrent episodes of skin rashes probably due to stress, anxiety and probably a good amount of anger repression too so that part aligns with 9-ish. The good thing is that I've never struggled with overweight issues, I'm mostly "in shape" so to speak and it is constant and stable (has always been).
I did a google search and AI hit:
The copy paste is messy, but see, it even causes the intestinal issues, this is likely your body’s way of alerting you that you need something else, at least that’s my intuition. I knew you had malabsorption when you mentioned the osteo, and k figured that the meds could have a role, and well, there you’ve it.Yes, some diabetes medications can affect absorption:
- Alpha-glucosidase inhibitors
These drugs, such as acarbose, miglitol, and voglibose, reduce the absorption of carbohydrates from the small intestine. They work by inhibiting enzymes that convert complex carbohydrates into simple carbohydrates. This can improve diabetes control, but it can also cause issues, especially after eating a high-carb meal
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
Dragons:
Babies, click them to make them grow up into Kara’s Dragon Museum
My favorite adult Museum Exhibits
If you try an honest (no cheating) juice cleanse and eat fully raw (plants) but supplement yourself accordingly, you may be able to reverse your diabetes 2 and get off of all those shitty meds that are causing the osteo and stomach issues.. The asthma.. Well, I don’t really know an easy solution with that, maybe hypnotherapy. It was offset by the smoking.. There are tonsillectomy procedures that reduce the size without extrication, that may give more air space to breathe better..
It isn’t bad to just have them shaved down a bit.. They don’t cut them out.. It would be called a tonsilletomy technically (partial).
Last edited by Braingel; 10-26-2024 at 11:38 AM.
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
Dragons:
Babies, click them to make them grow up into Kara’s Dragon Museum
My favorite adult Museum Exhibits
Also there is a doctor online who has a ketosis diet and in some cases reverses the need to have insulin or a significant reduction of it. Type 1 here. Wife tried it and felt much better on it.
There are many articles of people who have struggled with anhedonia and it passed. Stress, abuse can cause an onset of it, and last for years.
A true case of a personality disorder starts young and you'd have some early symptoms of it, and it seems it has another source, and that can be reversed.
Hope is always there.
I believe stress poisons us and the PSTD arises from that, and that stressor is poisonous.
Start there with reactions, and eliminate it, and dopamine would have a chance.
From verbal abuse i had a case, and in a lot of time it resolved. Never entered in anhedonia thankfully.
I believe that is the trajectory.
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I don't have osteoporosis anymore. It was due to my sarcoidosis treatment. I took 40 mg of solupred (2x 20 mg a day) for about two years. Btw eight sarcoidosis out of ten don't need treatment at all. My case needed to be treated, as a matter of fact the day my doctor decided it should be treated was because of me ; he had the final diagnosis and thought that it shouldn't be treated but he wouldn't checked my last thoracic x-ray, I did. I said 'you should check this (the file was on his desk) and after he did he said "Indeed, these kind of lesions have to be treated".
For the next two years I then took the treatment aforementioned but I skipped the six months control check I had to do because I was out of the country for a prolonged time. I felt that somethings was wrong there (I lost a lot of weight and was very tired, I didn't know it at the time but it was diabetes and osteoporosis) so I starts to diminish the cortisol dosis on my own. When I got back to my doctor he said I did the right thing and did it the right way (gradually without stopping the treatment at once).
Anyway, that was a long time ago (mid 2000's). The last osteodensitometry I had was about fifteen years ago and it was perfectly normal. In addition I would say that I don't feel physically unhealthy because all my health issue are "under control" and well treated *. That said, you're right and if it is possible to obtain equivalent or better result without medication but with a special healthy diet then why not !
Edit : * Well not really cuz my my left shoulder is injured and hurts. I haven't even started the kinesitherapy sessions that my doctor prescribed three months ago. I'm the king of procrastination !
Last edited by godslave; 10-26-2024 at 12:25 PM.
Keto can be good but temporarily spike blood pressure, so it can be contraindicated in some hypertension..
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
Dragons:
Babies, click them to make them grow up into Kara’s Dragon Museum
My favorite adult Museum Exhibits
I thought you took Lexapro! No? OMG, I think it/some kind of psychiatric drug could help you. Damn, another month to wait! You're seeing the psychologist though, and get along well, WOOHOO❕
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Antidepressants can cause gain of weight which isn’t that good for hypertension and diabetes.. Also, they affect the neurotransmitters which is within the gut and I believe rather than jump on meds, less invasive ways should at least try.. I don’t really like antidepressants unless it’s a rare case of a genetic depression, I view depression as a symptom and not a condition for 9/10 cases..
I am in my head; not society.
Yes, that is who I am, hence the bold am. Also, a brain angel. (+ my own incarnation of a Zelda concept).
My thoughts align w action to succeed what needs (at least in my dreamed ideal, they do)…
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Babies, click them to make them grow up into Kara’s Dragon Museum
My favorite adult Museum Exhibits
Thank you very much for your kind words. Yes, I will definitely ask for pills next time and I guess I will have to test some an see what works (that alone will take a while). I have to face reality, I need medication otherwise I feel like I won't get better. As for my fear of "psychiatric pills" well, as the song goes...