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    Quote Originally Posted by aixelsyd View Post
    Mostly worried about money. Working on snagging a second job to be able to save money again and protect against the outrageous inflation. My household no longer qualifies for ACA because we make too much, but the cost of living in Florida is beyond outrageous. Our "too much" is not enough to survive on long as these stupid fucks keep moving here and fucking shit up for those of us who have been here our whole lives.
    Other than that, I worry about where the U.S. is headed. Karma is a bitch and aiding and abetting genocide will not spell prosperity for this country. Then there's the whole thing with both primary candidates being pro-fascism.
    Most days it feels like I am drowning and helpless, but I keep praying for a way to somehow rise above it. I intend to exhaust every option if need be.
    Share the same sentiment with the first half. It's insane just how fucked the state has become since 2020. I feel like the only thing left to do is jump ship and leave. We're pretty much being forced out by the upper class boomers mass migration. Cost of living has skyrocketed beyond belief and salaries have barely budged an inch. Feel like the job market has been complete shit as well.

    But my main focus right now is with the military. My enlistment process has been a rollercoaster. I'm getting close though, making progress. Whoever said joining was easy was a damn liar or a lucky bastard.
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    This recently, I made my first in person friend after a disability program that took us to Las Vegas had resulted.. She has a traumatic brain injury and is slower because of this, and I have vowed to try and help her regain her ability to use the right side of her body (left side injury), and to help with her memory, I’ve made up little essential oil exercises, as the sense of smell most intertwines memory. I have also wanted to astrally affect her unconscious.. Via lucid dreams..

    How she became my friend..

    She kept coming up to me and asking me questions.. Her mother had accompanied her on the trip (love her mother), because she has the issues of short-term memory and with the ability to use right side of her body, making her prone in fall.. I at first thought she had a reduced IQ… As do most within the program… But she kept making small talk with me, and then overtime, because I liked her mother a lot (and 99% of the people on the trip had an IQ of <70, so she was better to go along with) I got into contact, after she started getting knots out of my hair with her mom.. I like the attention given to me, feeling valued and touched someone would want do that for me, I hadn’t even noticed the knots in my hair, as I am rather disconnected from my body and of my surroundings, and after that, because I would always stay behind so they’d do that, even though J. (initial to friend I made) insisted on it, because it made me feel acknowledged and cared for, which I seldom receive…

    I felt so touched and valued, and I felt I met her for a reason, when I heard of her story with the accident… She was in at age 17… No developmental disability prior.. And later on the bus the night I found out, I took her hand into my own and told her I promised that I would restore her memory and try and help her… And she slept on my shoulder. A bit of a back wind, is that I had my geranium essential oil on me, and I told her to smell it and say my name over and over, and she actually did remember my first name, which she’s not able to really do with new faces.

    I normally go on any trip I can that takes me away from my parents, as it is much needed time away from them and a break on my ptsd.. The Vegas trip was primarily watching various shows and a few attractions, and they let a few “higher functioning” people gamble..

    I am very convinced that J. is an SEE in terms of social role, and she is some ESFX in terms of cognition. Now it is Se lead she shows, but based on what I know of her past history, esfj wasn’t impossible prior to traumatic impairment (that altered personality, delayed development, altered functions in cerebellum and hippocampus and the left portion of watershed was injured).

    The enneagram type is a hard pin, because the injury and the effects of that trauma both emotionally and physically inhibit the ability to know it well, and it makes her seem 6ish, because she always has to reference others and ask for confirmation because of her memory impairment, but I’m not convinced that makes her a 6 in her own case. She could be a 2, 7, or yes, still a 6w7..

    If anything, she would now be an artificial/ trauma-induced 6 post injury, but if she ever regained function, this could just be a transient phase.. She doesn’t really have a conscious or even fully unconscious emotional core, because majority of her memory had been abolished, and it would’ve also rewired her emotional processing, from physical alteration, and she has a brain shunt.

    This is probably a bit selfish of myself, but it’s a 4 core motive and no one is free of motives, but I envisioned me helping her restore function of her brain via holistic measures and being recognized as gifted for this and it making a national headline.. And whilst I went there when I decided to be her friend, I felt genuinely moved and nothing but compassion for her as well…

    My friend was definitely an SEE or ESE in terms of interrelarional/ social role standards prior to injury.. She was a completely by volition, multi-faceted athlete, a prominent cheer leader and she was and still is quite gregarious and has social circles with every grouping, her mother had told me and she told me herself she was friends with anyone (almost sounds Fi ignoring 4D Se and Fe).

    What does stand out, though, is that her primary memories she kept in the long-term revolve around former close friends, family ties, and some Spanish words which was dear to her with where she’d grown up… This can point to being cognitive Fi… Bit in terms of social role, I really don’t know between SEE and ESE for prior to injury. Now, definitely SEE. In the possible and hopeful future she restores function, that’s also uncertain..

    J. even now is definitely a cognitive sensor, noticing always what is going on around, she noticed I slipped on her kitchen sink out of the corner of her eye, she always noticed if I have body odor, always notices if I have something on me, noticed the knotting of my hair.. Always notices if I stare off at her, I am not even staring at her, but I doze off into thought and fantasy, or some unrelated concept I am internally processing (introversion).. I don’t even notice I am “staring” at her.. Asks me why I’m staring, then asks if because she’s “ugly”, which can possibly show a hint at an image/2 core, but this is definitely not enough to go off on with how complex her case is… She is able to track all of her sensory surroundings and would have 4D Se.. She probably was and still is a cognitive ESFP, but I don’t believe other than the memory portion, which actually is also linked with emotions, is as affected, because in spite being slow, she has not become retarded mentally in the sense of not being able to understand information.. She just takes longer to register and has memory lapses.

    I know this thread I made doesn’t revolve around typology, but it is related to something unrelated to typology, that has happened within my life; formation of a friendship..


    ​It is honestly a good thing also, to try and have figure out the personality of someone with such a complex case, as it would aid what I am working on with my own digestive/organ system approach of typology, and transient states and effect, and with how to even type a person who would by most seem as untypable.

    Other things I remembered for her sensoric cognition is that she will always notice if I wear something backwards, which happens very frequently for me, if a tag stucks oit, if I am wearing a bra or not or if my bra is lopsided… Always notices the coloring of things and people.. In exact accuracy.. My ESTP cog online boyfriend is the same way, when we video call and with images I send..

    I have a hard time locating things in the fridge and then J, seeing everything in its place and form, pulls it out instantaneously..

    Quote Originally Posted by Braingel View Post
    How she became my friend..

    She kept coming up to me and asking me questions.. Her mother had accompanied her on the trip (love her mother), because she has the issues of short-term memory and with the ability to use right side of her body, making her prone in fall.. I at first thought she had a reduced IQ… As do most within the program… But she kept making small talk with me, and then overtime, because I liked her mother a lot (and 99% of the people on the trip had an IQ of <70, so she was better to go along with) I got into contact, after she started getting knots out of my hair with her mom.. I like the attention given to me, feeling valued and touched someone would want do that for me, I hadn’t even noticed the knots in my hair, as I am rather disconnected from my body and of my surroundings, and after that, because I would always stay behind so they’d do that, even though J. (initial to friend I made) insisted on it, because it made me feel acknowledged and cared for, which I seldom receive…

    I felt so touched and valued, and I felt I met her for a reason, when I heard of her story with the accident… She was in at age 17… No developmental disability prior.. And later on the bus the night I found out, I took her hand into my own and told her I promised that I would restore her memory and try and help her… And she slept on my shoulder. A bit of a back wind, is that I had my geranium essential oil on me, and I told her to smell it and say my name over and over, and she actually did remember my first name, which she’s not able to really do with new faces.

    I normally go on any trip I can that takes me away from my parents, as it is much needed time away from them and a break on my ptsd.. The Vegas trip was primarily watching various shows and a few attractions, and they let a few “higher functioning” people gamble..

    I am very convinced that J. is an SEE in terms of social role, and she is some ESFX in terms of cognition. Now it is Se lead she shows, but based on what I know of her past history, esfj wasn’t impossible prior to traumatic impairment (that altered personality, delayed development, altered functions in cerebellum and hippocampus and the left portion of watershed was injured).

    The enneagram type is a hard pin, because the injury and the effects of that trauma both emotionally and physically inhibit the ability to know it well, and it makes her seem 6ish, because she always has to reference others and ask for confirmation because of her memory impairment, but I’m not convinced that makes her a 6 in her own case. She could be a 2, 7, or yes, still a 6w7..

    If anything, she would now be an artificial/ trauma-induced 6 post injury, but if she ever regained function, this could just be a transient phase.. She doesn’t really have a conscious or even fully unconscious emotional core, because majority of her memory had been abolished, and it would’ve also rewired her emotional processing, from physical alteration, and she has a brain shunt.

    This is probably a bit selfish of myself, but it’s a 4 core motive and no one is free of motives, but I envisioned me helping her restore function of her brain via holistic measures and being recognized as gifted for this and it making a national headline.. And whilst I went there when I decided to be her friend, I felt genuinely moved and nothing but compassion for her as well…

    My friend was definitely an SEE or ESE in terms of interrelarional/ social role standards prior to injury.. She was a completely by volition, multi-faceted athlete, a prominent cheer leader and she was and still is quite gregarious and has social circles with every grouping, her mother had told me and she told me herself she was friends with anyone (almost sounds Fi ignoring 4D Se and Fe).

    What does stand out, though, is that her primary memories she kept in the long-term revolve around former close friends, family ties, and some Spanish words which was dear to her with where she’d grown up… This can point to being cognitive Fi… Bit in terms of social role, I really don’t know between SEE and ESE for prior to injury. Now, definitely SEE. In the possible and hopeful future she restores function, that’s also uncertain..

    J. even now is definitely a cognitive sensor, noticing always what is going on around, she noticed I slipped on her kitchen sink out of the corner of her eye, she always noticed if I have body odor, always notices if I have something on me, noticed the knotting of my hair.. Always notices if I stare off at her, I am not even staring at her, but I doze off into thought and fantasy, or some unrelated concept I am internally processing (introversion).. I don’t even notice I am “staring” at her.. Asks me why I’m staring, then asks if because she’s “ugly”, which can possibly show a hint at an image/2 core, but this is definitely not enough to go off on with how complex her case is… She is able to track all of her sensory surroundings and would have 4D Se.. She probably was and still is a cognitive ESFP, but I don’t believe other than the memory portion, which actually is also linked with emotions, is as affected, because in spite being slow, she has not become retarded mentally in the sense of not being able to understand information.. She just takes longer to register and has memory lapses.

    I know this thread I made doesn’t revolve around typology, but it is related to something unrelated to typology, that has happened within my life; formation of a friendship..


    ​It is honestly a good thing also, to try and have figure out the personality of someone with such a complex case, as it would aid what I am working on with my own digestive/organ system approach of typology, and transient states and effect, and with how to even type a person who would by most seem as untypable.

    Other things I remembered for her sensoric cognition is that she will always notice if I wear something backwards, which happens very frequently for me, if a tag stucks oit, if I am wearing a bra or not or if my bra is lopsided… Always notices the coloring of things and people.. In exact accuracy.. My ESTP cog online boyfriend is the same way, when we video call and with images I send..

    I have a hard time locating things in the fridge and then J, seeing everything in its place and form, pulls it out instantaneously..
    Redirecting this back away from typology.. The Vegas trip was 5 days total, with 4 nights, though I interacted with her 4 days, because she went off with her mother a day prior our leave. I have met up with her three times since, and have been back home from Vegas for slightly over a week..

    They liked me so much they wanted me to stay with them when they left..

    The mom was probably an eie, but she could’ve also been an ese… Cognition-wise it’s likely enfj and social role, it’s probably SF extrovert, with a social role as a caregiver who takes on more sensory tasks.. As in, she’s a literal professional caregiver… And her past job before this one had been being a secretary for medical hospital (far before her daughter ever injured). Father liked me so much, said I’m welcome absolutely any time whatsoever in the house and said I’m a “good influence” for his daughter..

    The reason why I don’t believe ESFJ cognition, is because there was no discussion of acquired databases of memory storage of detailed, concrete impressions.. If a sensor by cognition, it would actually probably be ESFP, but enfj makes more sense.

    *Went back to typology, oops*..

    But yes, this all is looking up… I’ve a new friend, and whilst I can sometimes get irritated that I can’t have much discussion with her about my interests, because of her slowness to process certain info, I really am thankful to now have a friend, someone who values me, and actually wants be around me genuinely and without conditions on it, because I’ve never had this, ever.

    It is so nice to have a person whose house you can go over to if things change and to just hang out.. And to be in the presence and not just spirit of someone who values and wants your company.

    I am a specific bird without wings, who needs another to fly me up to where I need reach, and from there, I fulfill my role of digesting the things around of ignorance.. I need someone to value me and put me up to where I can digest and relay my vision.. I lack the force to fly myself into the air, I only have wings of the imagination.. I excrete vision and a more hopeful future with what enters my own system… And depth and authenticity.. I just lack the ability to push into action… Someone has care and value my essence to be able give me that shove sending me up the mountain hill, so that I Gian the momentum going down and can retain that moving flow..

    So, my life has shifted in that I now live part time with my SEE friend and her father. She has a traumatic brain injury..

    It has been rather intense, with her. She has been sexual with me (stuck her finger into my anus without my consent, grabbed my breast as a joke, pressured me to use her vibrator, over clothes, not direct contact), and I enjoyed some of it.. But put up boundaries with the breast.

    I overall fair a lot better in her presence than of my family’s. She will often massage me with her left hand, which is very strong, probably because it has do all of the work, and we will just fall asleep into one another’s arms at night and hug in that position for a full 20 minutes until I pull out because she can smoosh me, being rather strong built and heavier..

    I have taken up a vast interest in hypnosis and have been successfully done so on some of my online friends (I was able hypnotize before I studied it)..

    I may full time live with my friend, her father suggested it to the future.. I have had to deal with a lot of crisis situations with her, that I won’t get into, as it isn’t the internet’s business for her own issues, and I was able to handle the crises well.

    I am going to try and hypnotize my friend and to regain full function of her right hand and envision how I will.

    When I am at her house for a few days, my bags uplift a bit and I feel and look healthier. I believe that when I am over there, more of my baseline, non-traumatized personality returns.. My mood dramatically inflates and life instills me in a tad.

    I am not going to post permanent links or reveal her full face, but here is a blocked out picture of her, with me, only her eyes you will get SeE (pun) https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...e66470a1a0966&

    Cuddling:
    https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...ef5be0d00a081&

    It is a video, but I’m not going to tempa link it of video, but a screen shot of video of her famous massaging me; https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...f4e2e7fd8496a&

    And I bear no make up, here https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachmen...c575dcf6101f7&

    There are other things with my life that are happening, but I won’t write about them until so..

    But having sleep that I can have whenever I want, physical affection, and being able to shower whenever I want all really have a significant effect in allowing me to be healthier, aside from of course, not having the direct traumatic stimulus of my family, allowing my nervous system to breathe and reboot.

    When I am with her, people call me miss instead of mam, I feel like when living around my parents, it stresses and makes me appear older.

    I haven't felt this valued or cared about in my life..

    She is very atop of hygiene and will always tell me to change clothes, she shaved my legs.. She is always brushing knots out of my hair with her good hand.. (I am too sensory devoid of surroundings to upkeep)..

    And I am always asking her for hug and to massage me, I will initiate the sleep cuddle hug.. Or she will put her legs over mine and snuggle.. I will sometimes evoke sad memories and cry just so I am hugged (4 core line into 2).. And she is always able to tell I am trying get her attention (I’ve noticed SEE’s are really good at reading nonverbal and stuff and I have other things to say in the future of this). But overall, I am in good spirits.

    I cook for her, though I once burnt plastic on the stove and then another time burnt my hand, which I remedied with aloe I picked and had put into the fridge prior to day of burn and with essential oils I had on me, namely Eucalyptus and this patchouli-rosalina salt scrub I made for her she hadn't used.. And it fixed up my burn so well, I only had one mild red patch and a small blister on my pinky.. I just experiment with things and do not follow directions, and I have made some superb things, others have failed and been infantile.

    If I say I am ugly she slaps me and sometimes I say it just so she slaps me..
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    Focus on work at the moment, which is mainly computer data entry. I think a lot about how to make and keep platonic friendships and don't really bring Typology into it. If we misunderstand each other I'll probably think about Socionics again...

    On the backburner: I want to do work that is more active and moves from place to place, maybe partially outdoors. Need to work out whether I need some kind of qualification to do that or how to get training. If I have an outdoors based job it might be easier for me to eventually live in a rural area, which would be nice. Would like to learn how to play a string instrument. Or drums, but I would need to live in a more rural(or remote) place to practise those.

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    Please share anything you are up to sharing. I would find it fascinating

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    Quote Originally Posted by BrainlessSquid View Post
    You scream Si seeking so loud it's insane
    Sorry
    I promise I won't talk about your type anymore :0

    Hope you get out of depression
    Absolutely none of that registers as Si-seeking, ime

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