Ni ego and self discipline early in life

[persimmonism]

i Talked to some other IEI she said she was meditating early or returning to a state of void on purpose
i was doing something similar and braingel was reading and not interacting with other ppl much as a child
even later in my years i was isolating also forced by ill health but i also felt ppl were excessively indulgent and irresponsible thats ennea 6 but the other beta NFs im mentioning are not
also not allowed to interact with objects much bc i could brake them. while i noticed most other children were using and touching everything

i imagine gamma NTs should be the same

A sense of self-inflicted disconnection from the world without realizing it is self-inflicted? Yes, could be. In my case, yes, when young.
I think very young IxI (<10 years) who are still utterly swimming in Ni waters with no temperance from their creative to get them more in touch with the outside world have that streak of single-minded utter resolution, resolve of steel, no outside reference point for the quasi-absurdity.