Hi, I'm new here so I hope this is the correct section for this.
I'm having some difficulties finding my Socionics type. I've started studying it for a week or so and I've come to the conclusion that I might be an ILI/LII type. Tests usually score me as an EII, but I'm sure I'm not one. Both Buskova and Gulenko description are far away from how I am.
I match with some rational key elements: wants to be prepared, always tense and not spontaneous, but I'm moody and my emotions change easily.
Both ILI and LII Buskova descriptions describe me well, but I'm much more emotional and sensitive. I'm polite as LII but quite good at reading others intentions and emotions and I can easily predict how situations will evolve. I strive to be polite and I'm the nicer person you'll meet if you are honest and nice too.
But if I sense some sort of mannerisms/fake flattery, I'll become suspicious.
I can see myself being Fe Polr, but only on the fact that I can't stand dishonesty or exaggerated display emotions.
I feel a lot of anger inside, but I don't show it. Only those near to me know my grumpier moodier side, but it's quite easy to lift up my mood- just leave me alone for a bit and treat me nicely.
I can't stand illogical people and I'm annoyed when people don't understand what I'm trying to explain. But I'm quite good at wording my thoughts and I have a good dictionary, some described me pedantic in my younger years.
I don't directly say to people "your opinion is wrong and your dumb". I may think it, but I'll say "what you are saying it's wrong and this is why...", omitting the confrontational attack (more LII than ILI). But I can easily get confrontational if someone tries to limit my freedom or is plainly rude.
For example, I have a group of friends that has a certain hierarchy and everyone has a certain role, based also on their gender. And I hate it and in these situations I can be much more blunt and assertive than in other situations, because I feel constricted.
I tend to get angry easily and I hate when people don't listen to me. I can be also really judgmental when people act inconsiderately or badly/impolitely.
I'm really anxious and I wait a lot before taking action, but I'm not passive as ILI is often depicted as and I value a lot facts and proofs, unlike LII. I also think that money are necessary and in my future I'd like to have a profitable career.
And I'd say that I'm highly attentive of my hygiene and my look and I care about being well dressed, it's fundamental for feeling adequate when I'm outside.
I'd also add that I'm really curious and I like novelty, unlike ILI, since I've read that ILI tends to stay on a single path and devalues Ne.
When I look at model G I can see myself relate to ILI, but this doesn't happen if I consider model A. My general issue is related to the fact that I find descriptions of the types and the subtypes to be too categorical.
I'm surely a negativiste and I see myself as strategic, but the rest is just a great confusion.
I'm sorry for the long and confused post, but I'd really appreciate any suggestion or advice ^^
Thanks in advance!!
Additional info: in MBTI I define myself as an INTJ and my enneagram is 5w4.
English is not my first Language so forgive any typos ^^'