What is beauty? What is love?

Beauty is subjective, depends on the person viewing it. It's something that is pleasing to the eye. When a piece of art has a good composition and many colors, then it looks appealing to people. Color plays a big part, such as a scattered rainbow in the sky would look beautiful and interesting to many people. If it's black and white, there are interesting lines and contrast. Something that evokes an emotional response, and you can feel it in your body as chills. You just know when you see something that is beautiful.

I don't really think about what love is. I have not experienced much of it from people. Love is an emotion, but you can also intellectualize it. Love is selfless. It is something that just is as itself. You may experience love from others in different ways from their actions more than words. I guess love can be a beautiful thing.

What are your most important values?

Treat people with respect, the way you want to be treated. Take care of your own affairs and don't bother other people with them. Do good to those around you with actions. Treat people fairly and justly. Be considerate. Make the world a better place and not worse in any way.

Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?

I am a Christian and do believe in God. God gave me a special visit in 2013 right after I had read the book of Matthew in the Bible, so I believed what I read, and believe that his appearance was real to me, and the way he appeared was true to the way the Bible had made it. The Bible has become a guide that is slowly revealed to me, and I have learned some verses by heart to help me in times of doubting, challenges, etc. Spiritual people such as the late pastor Charles Spurgeon has done many sermons where he explains in detail my experiences internally with my faith and struggles.

Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
It's just something that is necessary because of the human condition. I don't care about gaining power myself, I'd rather isolate myself and tend to my interests with freedom to do so.

What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?

I've had long conversations about the existence of God, and certain existential topics. I usually don't like to have too long of a discussion, but I enjoy listening to other people's points of view. I like reading books on philosophy and literature. I like things that are different from the norm. Some scientific things are interesting especially when learning about the human body or physics. I enjoy cooking and can cook quickly. I paint abstract art because I like that I don't know what the end result will be, but it turns out to look put together thoughtfully each time.

Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?

Yes, I used to read WebMD a lot when it first came out. I was a nursing student until I got sick and had to drop out. I read medical articles from time to time especially about the brain and animals. I am aware of my body and how it is feeling internally and think about it a lot. I work out at the gym and try to eat healthy.

What do you think of daily chores?

I make to-do lists to cross them off, so I don't forget my responsibilities. It is usually just to be considerate to my roommates such as doing the dishes and keeping the bathroom clean. When I lived alone I would let the dishes pile up to an extent, then would wait a few days to clean them. I like to keep objects in their place and keep things minimal and organized.

Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise.

I liked reading John Steinbeck's books. I like the writing style of Jack London. I usually read short books but have been able to read Gone with the Wind pretty quickly. One of my favorite authors is Philip K. Dick, and have read Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep many times. I recently read Hunger Games but it was so depressing that I had to stop. I read How Not to Die which is about going on a plant based diet. I read all of Roald Dahl and Beverly Cleary books as a child, Mark Twain, and Alice in Wonderland. I like action movies like John Wick and Marvel movies. I also watch a lot of documentaries.

What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?

Watching videos online about animals that are suffering makes me cry easily, but I don't cry when I attend a funeral of a human. Stupid things make me smile like eating hair in a dark room, and how weird that comes across. People being stupid makes me smile, like when someone gets a football to the nuts, or walks into a pole.

Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?

When I am in-line skating back and forth at the beach. Feeling the wind and sun in my face, even though I am not fully aware of everything around me, this is when I feel mostly in the physical world.

What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?

I am unable to socialize very well. When I am in a social situation, I have no idea how to behave and just sit quietly. I just want to blurt out things to be funny, but maybe not everyone would laugh because it's so odd, and not everyone has the same sense of humor. I am very shy and awkward with people, and do not like this about myself.

What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?

People say that I'm strong because of the many struggles in life I overcame. I am gentle and pleasant. A lot of people see me as very talented artistically. That I learn quickly and am a honest person.

In what areas of your life would you like help?

Help in making friends I suppose, getting to meet new people, because I isolate myself too much. How to be more motivated to work on my hobbies and finding fresh new ways to do them.