Can you help to find out my sociotype?
First of all, I am 648 (enneagram), ELFV (Attidutinal psyche), and I have ADHD - let set these things apart from my possible sociotype, I think they might interfere with the typing process.
And there it goes, i don't even know where to start. Maybe i should talk about every information element and what i think of it?
Fe. I have strong and uncontrollable emotions (probably emotional dysregulation?), i can't control my expressions at all, or can't express anything when it's appropriate to do so, my face then is stone cold. I don't think I could create an emotional environment, not at least by my own will, there is no filler with me, everything i feel goes straight out of me. I love the thought about emotional freedom, to not hold back anything, no matter how pretty or ugly it is.
Fi. I don't have strong opinion about anything. Everything is so ambiguous with me, because I keep in mind that things change a lot, for example, i couldn't say that red apples taste the best, what if the next day i will change my mind and it would be the green apples next. Same with people, I never deem someone as bad or good as a default, because these things doesn't exist as a default. A persons actions might be unacceptable/harmful at the moment, and at the moment that person would be bad, but never as a default. So if anyone changes I am really accepting and move on really quickly. Also, I am unable to tell if I am liked or disliked from other people. I am totally clueless.
Ti. Without medication I am pretty much a ball of chaos, bored out of my mind, can't follow the instructions, can't keep up with anything, trying to explain something and getting confused myself, forgetting everything - but that is all because of ADHD. With medication people said that I know am consistent, and show structure in me. I don't even know what qualifies as a good Ti or bad, but I love to analyze everything, because it's exciting and fun. Friends and loved one's call me a nerd, and my colleague (she strikes me as ESE) in lab thinks that I should get a life
Te. Since I was a little I use to collect all sort of crap, that I would think be of use for me, if I will come up with some weird ass idea. And someone with tendencies to act impulsive (ADHD trait) I was really stressed about my own savings. I have these sudden thoughts of what I can improve all of the sudden. On the other hand, if someone will show me a video and show in person how to do something my mind goes blank, I couldn't repeat that correctly, but that also could be ADHD.. Also, some people view me either as lazy or workaholic.
Ni. I easily make all sort of connections, but I rather view them as a tool, to come up with something. A new idea is wayy more exciting that a connection of ideas.
Ne. Well, I'm full of ideas, I'm use to coming up with things and help other people with it. I also don't think it's anything special. I also enjoy creating science fiction scripts in my head, writing novels, but never finishing them Some day, I never loose the hope.
Si. I can't relax and don't know how to rest, often forget to eat, don't feel my body at all, as if my receptors are fucked up. I really hated to be told to relax, or look at something, but when I'm medicated I am not as frustrated and can enjoy surroundings as well, and actually love how the feel of being relaxed feels (because I only feel this way with stimulant help)
Se. I don't want to change anything lol. I don't care about Se