irritation is a common thing for me because i get overstimulated easily but i rarely get truly angry. even if i do it quickly slips into sadness. i’ll cry while arguing lol. if it’s a matter of personal importance(which there aren’t many) then i won’t back down and will end it by whatever means are available to get them to stop talking. one of those methods has been physically but that’s been as an absolute last resort after being continuously provoked while i attempt to deescalate. i used to target insecurities during arguments when i was younger because my anger was more prevalent, i was unhealthy, and i wanted to win but i don’t do that unless i really hate a person now which is rare. i also have made threats like slashing someone’s tires so that they would stop saying bullshit but that was a case of something that felt like an injustice to myself if i didn’t so @.@

growing up with screaming and yelling being the only way to get noticed and heard makes it so if the person i’m confronting refuses to listen when i’m trying to be reasonable that i have no qualms in doing so.

i don’t break peoples things when i’m upset. i don’t think it’s fair.

i have no problem showing how they’re making me feel or exaggerating it if i know that’s the only way to get through to them.

while i can’t control the fact that i cry easily i refuse to make myself a fool in public other than that so if i’m upset i will just be quiet and i will usually forget about how i felt by the time we are in a private setting.

otherwise, with the more common irritation i quickly apologize once i calm down if they’re not too mean in return