Member Questionnaire (mysterofdungeon)
Member Questionnaire 1 (mysteryofdungeon)What is beauty? What is love?
They’re similar in that they’re ideas we’re supposed to have and value highly, while also being highly subjective and vague. You could say they represent idealization itself. When actually experienced, they’re a bunch of tingly and warm feelings. Love is happiness and feeling like you’d do anything for someone. Beauty in a more concrete sense is more difficult to idealize as it can hold negative connotations (i.e. superficiality, “beauty fades”). Like love though, I think fleeting beauty and feelings can hold deeper meaning and represent something real and eternal a lot of the time though, if you are looking for it and not seeing things from a narcissistic/superficial perspective. There can be real love within a situation that appears as limerence.
What are your most important values?
Love and acceptance
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I’m not religious because I dislike routine and being expected to be positive and the subtle pressure to accept the views of particular leaders all the time. A lot of religious groups also hold spiteful views towards certain groups of society and you don’t really find out until you have been dragged deep into their circles for a while. So I tend to stay away from hierarchical environments of people organized around certain views.
I would say I am quite spiritually inclined though in the sense that there’s a lot more to the subjective experiences of our lives than mundane explanations can account for, and we still have a lot to learn about the universe and consciousness.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
A lot of concentrated energy and human organization. If you look at us from a macro scale it’s like we’re a bunch of bacteria acting up when war occurs. We’re getting existential and heated as a species. Power again is just concentration of energy that is or could potentially be used to accomplish certain things.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I don’t find that I can talk about these things often, but when I can I have had long, or at least memorable conversations with certain individuals on politics and culture.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
It depends on the person really. I don’t really like the types of people who will read one article and base all of their strongly-held conclusions off of it. I have a partial background in applied physical science and when others don’t and get preachy, it tends to get painful quickly for me. These types don’t tend to account for human diversity and personal experience either. That’s not to say I think amateurs can’t build accurate views though, I believe they can. I’m one as well when it comes to health/medicine.
There’s a quote I like that has to do with this: “In science we don’t think, we test.” I dislike when others base their identities off of having “correct” opinions on things like that, and who try to cajole others under their views.
What do you think of daily chores?
I try to just do everything quickly and get them out of the way, or leave things until I really need to deal with them.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise.
I can’t think of any new ones recently. I’m not really a movie buff. I usually just use YouTube, and read news articles.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Actually hearing about how someone hadn’t been able to cry for more than 20 years recently made me tear up.
I saw some dogs at the park earlier today which made me smile.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
Maybe when I’m taking a bath? Hot water simulating the womb. Or taking a walk through the woods. Trees and mist simulating… idk.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
I tend to not tend to my emotions and they can explode in unexpected scenarios. I probably have some form of CPTSD with BPD traits, although I have yet to be assessed. Internally I experience my emotions as very strong and can get bad anxiety when it comes to people. Basically I’m oversensitive to life although I don’t show it usually somehow. I also have developed endless deja vu over the past year.
I can also get too negative sometimes. I wish I could be more positive.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
I’m often told that I come across as calm and professional, and sometimes confident in everyday life (though a few people have also told me I should be more confident). I often get complimented on my planning and directive abilities. Sometimes people say I have good social skills, which usually surprises me.
I actually quite like the antisocial parts of myself though, where I can be stubborn and ignore popular opinions, and steer people away from those who have manipulating behaviors.
In what areas of your life would you like help?
I think a therapist would say that I need help with being grounded when I’m in an explosive phase. Otherwise, I’m a pretty independent person. Even a partner, if they offered amazing “assets”, I’d be fine with seeing them once a month or even less.
Well, there’s part one. I’ll finish the rest later.
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Originally Posted by roger557
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