Member Questionnaire (BILLY)

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Member Questionnaire 1 (BILLY)

What is beauty? What is love?

I don't know, something aesthetic.

I don't know, a high degree of liking

What are your most important values?

Intergrity, loyalty, fortitude

Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?

I am a Scientologist and believer in Jesus Christ, baptized Catholic, formerly baptized Mormon.

I began my spiritual journey with an interest in Catholicism after viewing EWTN as a preteen and attending parishes in late teens and early 20s before feeling to isolated in the church leading me to the LDS church which provided the opposite experience of the Catholic church, with the Catholic church providing me the theology I sought but no community, whereas the LDS church gave me the community, but I couldn't believe in the theology, leading to feeling like a fake.

I got into Scientology by a coincidence of my walking down times square and getting invited to see a free film on Dianetics. I had a lot of black PR and biases from media on the church so didn't want to get involved but was left with a good impression on my visit and a curiosity to learn more, leading me to getting on courses just to discover what exactly this religion was from their perspective. This lead to an increase in reality with them and eventually my considering myself a part of it and deciding to join staff.

Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?

War is a consequence of man's aberrations and evil but not all war is unjust. A war to free your people from an unjust occupation would be a just war for example.

Militaries are a necessary part of a nation to have self assurance of their own freedom and protection from others. Military service is a noble duty.

Power is control and the ability to have others do your will

What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?

I've had a lot of very long conversations lately ranging from casual talk about life, hobbies and interests, history, politics, religion, etc.

My interests are in religion, history, ethical philosophy (what is the right thing to do, what constitutes a good man, etc), strength sports, martial arts, music, literature, etc.

Why? Because they appeal to me

Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?

Yes, I've been focusing a lot of my own health as of late and trying to do things to make my body healthier with exercise, diet, and supplements.

What do you think of daily chores?

Gotta do them. Most chores I do on a weekly basis but certain tasks such as cleaning room, bathroom, and kitchen I do daily.

Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.

I love Dostoevsky novels such as Crime and Panishment and Yukio Mishima novels like Runaway Horses. Those books speak to me strongly. I also really like books of stoicism and things that motivate me somehow like Jocko books, Mishima's Sun and Steel, etc.

What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?

Hunter x Hunter chimera ant arc had me crying like a bitch. I started tearing up watching the Martian and Avatar on a recent plane ride. Also teared up reading an autobiography, Mine Were of Troubles. When I read the gospel of Matthew I always cry.

I don't know why, emotions boil over.

Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?

When I feel genuinely loved by those around me with a mutual love for them as well

What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?

I don't know.

My tendency towards procrastination and hesitancy. How I can be so lost in thought and absent minded. How I feel restricted in expressing myself, like a curse that simply prevents me from truly expressing how I feel and what I think. How I choose the easy and immediate over the long term and more difficult, like that whole children test where you offer 1 cookie now or 5 cookies tomorrow. I always take the 1 cookie now.

What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?

People like me for my easy going, kind and polite, conflict avoidant nature, when I'm in a good mood at least.

I like my integrity, my work ethic, my sense of morality.

In what areas of your life would you like help?

Every area.

Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.

Yes. I get stuck by my own ennui and lethargy which frustrates me

What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?

I like kindness, patience, loyalty. I hate rudeness, impatience, lack of loyalty.

I get along with most types.

How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?

I deeply desire a genuine romance and bond with another. I don't care about sex, I would rather simply hold one woman with genuine love for me and I for her, safely in my arms, then have all the raunchy, wild sex with the most beautiful women in the world any time one wishes if given the option between the two. I would choose the former over the latter each and every time.

If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?

Their ethical and moral statue and health. Above all else, I want them to be good people who make the right choices in life.

A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?

Usually I ignore it, somethings dispute it if it annoys me enough. I get annoyed.

Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.

The #1 issue is the overwhelming lack of ethics and moral deterioration. Honesty has no more value, chastity has no more value, friendship has no more value, loyalty has no more value, not over selfishness and the desire for personal pleasure and greed leading to the collapse of the family structure, the rampant use of drugs, the collapse of cultural and demographic preservation, etc

How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?

I don't know. I feel a connection or desire to get to know someone more. I try to have good affinity for them, similar realities, and good uptone communication.

How do you behave around strangers?

I'm very self absorbed so tend to ignore people around me and focus on my thoughts. I've been called robotic by associates a lot