In what way is your PoLR painful for you?
In what way is your PoLR painful for you?
Bc SEEs misunderstand me and think I’m “disrespecting them” when that’s not my intention, in many cases that’s not even what’s objectively happening is my guess. But I didn’t know this and I don’t know whether or not I “deserve” some se type lashing out at me for some perceived slight or whatever, even my intentions are completely innocent. So it messes with my head. Some SEEs can also be really insensitive and unempathic so their feedback made me think I was being too dramatic or should try harder when really they were unintentionally mistreating me? Other Se valued and/or strong types in my life told me there was miscommunication
so yeah in sum, pain, because you can’t defend yourself against unfair attacks
no experience with SLEs
edit you can imagine that a pattern like this, over time, basically becomes unintentional abuse and destroys you from within.
Also before I knew socionics I had an ILE I wanted to get close to, of course I couldn’t and supervisees can also hurt their supervisor due to devaluing their lead but I’m extremely careful with ILEs since now I feel like I just couldn’t have expected him to understand me ane shouldn’t have tried to close the distance, probably harmed him. So yeah - I mean I keep the concept of supervision in mind even as a supervisor. I feel pretty bad but he wasn’t nice to me either, again claiming that I was “trying to get attention” which messes with my head again. That how come I am in so much pain I need help, should try harder to not be or something.
anyways not interested in ILEs or SEEs at all at this point
never really felt interest in an SLE
this might sound strange but SLEs almost make more “sense” to me than SEEs. I cannot stand the latter type (well there are exceptions - there have been kind SEEs who basically just left me alone; those types I can find somewhat attractive). It was difficult for me to “see the Fi” if you will in SEEs at first but relative to SLEs..they clearly have it haha
Last edited by necrosebud; 05-25-2021 at 12:30 AM.
Ok, I think this relates to Te PoLR.
I have trouble absorbing large bodies of information and being factually detailed, I prefer condensed logical structures because it is easier for me to absorb them. I also do not really have Te practicality and business sense so I wouldn't really do well in a Te environment and it would just drain me. I have issues with being objective and I tend to look at things as being more subjective. Getting overloaded with too many facts that I find useless to the overall lesson is very unpleasant also.
I am not sure what my PoLR is. It could be Si, Fi, Ti, or Ne.
For me, I tend to have a lot of anxiety. Especially around things that I am not good at, the future, and my health. I like the freedom of making decisions. An assumption that many of anxious people is that they are indecisive. For me, I need the closure that a decision brings.
Fi is maybe not painful; it is more fickle and confusing. I have pretty strong morals, but not a good grasp on relationships and social rules. Social rules can be very vague.
virgo sun - aquarius rising - scorpio moon
I'm Se PoLR.
My theories are somewhat related to the reality. I don't like the ones which are totally impractical and are just for fun. This seems to be how my PoLR is supervising my EGO block as a Super-EGO evaluatory function. But I don't do the Se well and my Se remains in a low level.
Some of my Se-related problems:
- I am somewhat clumsy such that I am usually not sure of how much force to use on an object. For example I often destroy my keyboards.
- I find that I am almost unable to mobilize myself. Even a few days before an exam such that ILEs are mobilized, I am still in the same working pace to review the materials and I will not be mobilized by an exam. Even if this exam is very important, I mostly keep the same pace and I will not be highly mobilized by it.
- I don't like to be pushed and I also find myself hard to push others.
debate explain to them on why I don't care. Usually it makes people angry, but I don't care, I've just accepted that the best end is if I just don't care. I personally know a couple EII's, and I'd just like to ask where the problem with opening up is? What makes it so that they don't want to open up to you? Personally I'm fine with people opening up to me of any type, it's more the problem of getting other people to do it.
Ti vs Fi
Ti checks the logical validity
Fi checks the feeling alignment
Many times Fi valuers can not see that I'm deriving from detached perspective. "More of this is the truth vs I'd like it like this - I'm experiencing to the truth". Fe muddles up this by making things too grand - the truth gets a poetic spin and is no longer factual which might make Fi valuers confused.
Many times Ti valuers can not see that Fi valuers deriving from personal feelings. "More of I'd like things to be like this vs this is the way things are - I'm stating the personal aspect". Te muddles up this by stating it as a fact in too hasty manner- the aspect becomes stubborn factual state which divorces from logic and confuses Ti valuers.
The personal feelings tend to make me question sanity of many things.
MOTTO: NEVER TRUST IN REALITY
Winning is for losers
Life is a joke but do you have a life?
Last edited by jason_m; 05-27-2021 at 10:20 PM.
It's stressful no matter how good I am at it.
It takes so much energy, I have none left for other stuff. Makes me want to nap, forget, dissapear...
I'm too used to it for it to be painful, it's closer to resignation by now.
Even EIEs are closer to small annoyance when they get on my case, hope someday I'll become inwardly solid enough it won't bother me at all.
NF types make me want to bite their heads off. Especially EII/IEE.
with weak nonvalued Ni it's hard to be assured in good outcomes
as it's weak - you underesteemate positive tendentions and stay more anxious than should
as it's nonvalued - it's hard consciously trust to known positive opinions
it's possibly to make yourself be assured in positive outcomes, but is harder than for most people
also. when I dealed with IN*J types, I felt near them more calmed and optimistic. mainly by coping their state that due to what they say
- to make the life or its perception good enough to bother lesser about bad in it
- to improve weak region skills to make lesser mistakes there
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