Originally Posted by
Takyon
Alright so here's notes about my IMEs. Bare in mind this is long, so I appreciate if you do happen to read it.
Si - I am drawn to comfort but oftentimes I neglect it. Such as, I don't eat much or my eating times becoming irregular because I'm absorbed in a project or whatever I am doing. Even if I set the food right in front of me while working, I am still zoned out entirely. People find that I need constant reminders for things because my mind appears to be elsewhere. I'm aware that not eating or sleeping well affects my health, especially mental wellbeing, making comfort a fairly big deal. When I am not focused on a goal/project, I will be trying to be as comfortable as possible, minimizing anything that doesn't help with this. I also put myself at odds with my own comfort willingly, such as wearing shorts/skirts during cold weather, sweaters in hot weather, removing music for awhile as some weird form of punishment, and also just not eating food at times (either because I am absorbed in something or I was punishing myself). It goes on.
Se - I think it is easy for me to make so called "direct impacts", such as being a little rebellious bigot when I think it will annoy someone. Lol. Think of a direct "F u" to their face, but more playful than vengeful. No, I just am not a vengeful person, and will only use force in order to secure myself space. In general I am not even against Se, but for sure I'm against falling into power games and refuse to see situations like this. In no manner would I want to hold power over other people--because other people are individuals and I want to exist as one too, so this is the sort of respect I expect. I do not live to gain power. I live to coexist peacefully.
Ne - My mind is constantly thrumming with ideas for a story or poem, or even for digital art. I definitely have more ideas than I am able to act on, and will be constantly moving from one thing to the next because I've found something shiny with more potential. The idea usually becomes that I want to get this done and share it with people (though I usually don't complete it, and end up sharing snippets instead). I tend to open up my options for things and will back out of it last second if I think something else can be more interesting instead (something I've become guilty of). I think it's very easy for me to use Ne, and I don't think I've ever experienced burnout from it. It is obvious to me there is potential to everything.
Ni - I usually map ahead what I want to do in a very long term sense, as this is inherently tied to my meaning in life. If I don't have an idea of what it is I want in long term, I feel very out of place. Even among all of my ideas, I must know some sort of direction and it will take a lot to ignore this feeling. Despite this, I don't typically predict what others may do and I often seem to be surprised by things. I mean, not expecting anything in the short term makes life much more fun. If I do predict, it's only for fun and I will still be surprised in the end.
Ti - Whatever I am working on, I intend for it to make sense. I can become very critical about detail for this reason, and if I feel something is off and can't tell what it is, I might ask for outside opinion instead. This goes for many of decisions in general. I want to be certain that my reasons make logical sense for the other party, and will earnestly want to hear their own reasons and how they've arrived to it. I like to understand how systems work for the very sake of just understanding and not for any real practical merit (I jump from computer science, video games, trading, philosophy/theology, typology... these are things I wish to understand more over time). Besides just wanting to understand systems, this is often because I also want to make my own. Given if I'm not feeling lazy, I don't like to follow something blindly and I want to be able to assert my own judgement (after I've consumed enough information). This is probably a goal of mine in the end, to uphold my own 'truth'; having opinions of my own.
Te - At times I am blind to facts in position of my own belief. I try to avoid this where I can, is all I can really say. I willingly collect information in order to act more efficiently, setting up channels for myself to have the necessary information at disposal. However I can be slow to act on this information. I do not get overwhelmed at large influx of information, more that I see it is there when I want/need it (for work/projects).
Fi - Nowadays I consistently keep notes in my head who is a friend and who is not (but this list appears to be shifting often). However my criteria is just like this: do we talk often or not? Do they hear my ideas out or do they have interesting ideas of their own? But it doesn't fly through my head what me and this other person really have in common. I actually realized just now I don't think I have much in common with my friends besides lots of experiences together, and that we just seem to have fun talking or doing just about anything. However, people I love or are my closest friends, they are at that point because I know I can rely on them and I have the same energy for them to rely on me.
Fe - I think I can be emotive, but it's admittedly draining after some point. I like to poke other people instead. Hmm. But other people like to poke me for reactions. Hmmm. Well either way emotions are fun to be around, and I appreciate a world that feels alive with color. I'm not all that appreciate of people who seem like a stick in the mud.
So, for the most part I think I am SEI but I'm mildly skeptical of this typing with my Ne. Even with creative subtype it seems a bit odd. But yeah, I am curious about what others think.