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I'm always afraid that mini insect sprites, or worse yet when going to the lake, fish ectoplasm will gross me out with a rusty chair of bad knock knock jokes and a descended staircase into the parts of life that are miserable and accursed.
But I also sense shatterpoints, like areas where a penetrating thought, idea, theory, template, design, oracle, any of that realigns the deck to chosen routes of long farfetched stations of unimaginable freedom, like where the thoughts and energies that I generate turn the glacier into a time paradox of ahead of My time ponytails of the seasoned sorcerer.
France just beat Gibraltar 14-0 today 11/18/2023 with Mbappe scoring at 30, 74, and 82 like 374 Wes from Pokemon Colosseum and 28 Sandslash, so Raptor Wes is the greatest player ever, and mastered the system in Pokemon episode 140 Wired for Battle at 493 Arceus level, jewels of prime time oasis dreams crystallizing clusters of groves to wings stargazing zithers of light and magic to souls of galaxies sky-walking fringes of dragon healers unveiling the will of the world
When Germany won 7-1 in 2014 with goals at Lugia minutes and year 249 and Oscar Nascour scored, it was just like France's 14-0 game.
Both Inter Milan and France finishing 2nd place was the prophecy
In the epic battle of Einstein vs Newton, Einstein won, jamming crazy caterpillar volt tackles and amulets of gripping poisons apple frenzy charting extravagant maps!!
Raptor transcended George Lucas by beating Isaac Newton
Raptor married Rainbows
I think my problem is that I emit those energies to a subtle degree.
Isn't this just entropy? How everything naturally dies and ends no matter what? Yeah- all the time. It feels the 'most real' and happiness and joy feel so fleeting and elusive in comparison. But regardless I still have hope and love in my heart. I guess that's really stupid, eh?
The eternal war between nihilism and meaning, love and hatred- sadism & sweetness.
Maybe I could try a little bit, but my Te block me from going too deep into these nonsense.
It seems like animal senses type thing where dogs can tell if something is wrong or someone is about to die. Maybe some people are more in tune with what they have genetically. I think I can sense it to an extent, calm before a storm type feeling, sometimes. I feel like usually it’s an expectant atmosphere that creates that general feeling over everything or a scary setting, like someone said a house is haunted so you might just think you are getting creepy vibes from it and be more alert to things (or even make things up in your head).
I think about if I had a cat, if it would eat me if I died. I’ve heard about those kind of things happening. I was worried about the thought at first, but then realized I don’t know why I’d care, id be dead, although I just imagine others walking in in something like that. Seems like it would be kind of traumatizing. I don’t know if I want cats if I’m old. Just imagine if you were an old lady with 50 cats and you died. It’s like a damn horror movie.
I had aversive feelings of dead bodies in near monthes after overturn in "ukraine" in 2014. I suspect there were mass killings of unarmed and mb not army (which were not soldiers at war) people for political reasons. By USA-hithlerists side which got the control in Kiev. An example of what they did is known by events in Odessa in 2 may 2014. Killed could be much more in different places. It looked as not accidental military looses which arised slower there, it seemed as massive intentional killing.
Also I may remember feeling of dark field near a human. I don't know what was wrong, mb drugs or a disease. Soon after (~3 monthes) that human died from seems heart stopping.
On cemetaries exists something alike ash(?) feeling. But energy there is closer to acceptable, not aversive. Except mb some graves (bad people? violence?).