Hello, my name is Away and I am an ISTP
I wrote that on purpose, because being an ISTP sometimes really feels like it's a disease or something By now you can see that I am in a happy mood, it's sort of like that, but I still have an important question to ask, since the moods kind of shift way too often and more often than not they turn into pure crap.
So far I know, from both my own experience annd from reading, that ISTP kind of contradict themselves. On the one hand they are built to scare people away from themselves, on the other hand they are very adventurous, active and willing to try new things. Well the truth is, these two things don't get along too well in a single person, unless you're willing to hit the clubs alone. I am sorry if the post isn't logical, I am a bit too excited for my own liking as I am writing this and besides that I am trying to explain things I never ever talked or wrote about.
So if I had to phrase my problem in a few words: I am really outgoing and active, others just don't know it!
So I know that I can be open and social, I actually say yes to every exciting proposal that comes my way. This side in me really comes out when all the barriers fall, when I am a bit drunk for example, you should see me at bars then, one would never guess I am an ISTp. But of course there is the everyday life, I was once driving in a bus and when I saw my reflection in the window my thought was "Why the hell am I so grumpy?". At that moment I realised it, even my face has a "I don't talk, I bite!" sign written all over it, this is topped with the unfriendly behaviour and I know that people simply think that I am not worth to be bothered with. Although I want to be friendly, it somehow doesn't work!
So now I am viewed as a really boring person by all except a few close friends. It's a pain, especially since I NOT like that and I don't want to be like that! So it has grown into an endless circle, I am viewed as boring, so people speak less, so I grow even more quiet, so people speak even less etc.
So are there any ISTPs who have won a fight against themselves? How can I loosen the barriers and let the exciting me come out? How can I be an interesting person to speak to?
The barriers that I talk about grew on me because of this bloody circle. I became quite shy, really bothered by how I look etc. Yet I know that these barriers are artificial, since in the situation mentioned above they disappear. That makes it even harder to return to everyday life as they return, it's like somebody shows you heaven and then throws you back into hell.
I know it is possible! In the ISTP description it says that those who manage to open up are really social people!
Please add your experiences!!! I shall be MOST grateful!
PS I am 100% sure that I am an ISTP