Ok this question started out as a general one about Ne ignoring, but turned into something of the flavor Ne ignoring/1D Te and Se/devalued Te
Trying to not ignore Ne makes me feel very uncomfortable. Maybe cause it then feels like I'm ignoring my base. or something to do with Ni-Ti-Te PoLR, feeling like I didn't think it through enough, therefore missed details, therefore feel uncomfortable "committing" like that (Ni valuation)
Engaging my role doesn't make me feel uncomfortable (unless it's imposed on me) and I suck more at that, so what's with the ignoring having this effect?
This is an issue for me lately as I developed a complicated-ish health issue with pretty ambiguous treatment.. and my mom, who is Ne-PoLR.. is the one telling me to be more open to trying different things.
I'm frustrated with myself and I know I'm often wrong about things, but I'm so stubborn. It's not just that though, but also an issue (which applies to things in general) where I feel like I just don't know what to think about things!! I'm telling you, i could be so convinced of something, but in reality it'll somehow turn out to be wrong, and at this point i'd just be like, god not again.
so, here in this situation, with my shitty T i try to reason to myself about whether or not doing Whatever thing my ESI mom suggests would be beneficial, turning it over so many times in head, then usually rejecting it because she just told me to do it without explaining anything and it seems to go against my squiggly Ti understanding of the mechanisms of the injury.
she keeps on (most of the time) turning out to be right, but even with this knowledge i STILL can't get myself to open-mindedly trust her when she says it'll work. i can't. it makes me extremely uncomfortable. is this stupid and i just gotta suck it up?
The other thing is that in life in general, i simply can't see things. i can't SEE things properly, hope you get what i mean. i've always joked that life to me just feels like my journey of figuring out what the proper way of looking at things is, but lately it's stopped feeling like just a joke..
Anyway, i don't have a SLE inverse-seer around, to help me tell what is what. How can I deal with this frustrating 1D Te/Se combination on my own? and be more goddamn open-minded?
thank you and if you plan on helping me out, would you mind rereading what i wrote, slowly, a second time? not because of you but because of my jumbled tired writing where i'm not sure the idea i'm trying to communicate can be grasped the way i want it to, the first time over. idk