So basically I need help and also I feel lonely

[MidnightWilderness]

Hello everyone, I am currently unsure what my type is and so I created an account because I can't die without finding answers as to why the relationship between my supposed dual (ILE) and I feels off. I spent 2 days already not sleeping right and also not bothering to feed myself correctly, so I finally decided to start posting here so that I stop torturing myself with theories and a fanatical obsession with reading all the forums for hours. I feel like a balloon filling with more and more air, almost ready to burst.

I also feel a heart-rending amount of loneliness as I feel like no one understands me right now. Wait, when have I ever truly in the darkest, deepest, depths of my heart felt that?

So before I start regurgitating too much information in this introduction I will just give you this:

I hope you all are doing well, and if you aren't just listen to this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL4LNg-iyY4

This will make you the opposite of well but her emotions are so beautiful and uncaged: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehaEdXJGEdg

This is classical for when you feel a bittersweet longing in your heart: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUuusqy50yk

Sublime classical: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cNQFB0TDfY

[nanashi]

Hello everyone, I am currently unsure what my type is and so I created an account because I can't die without finding answers as to why the relationship between my supposed dual (ILE) and I feels off. I spent 2 days already not sleeping right and also not bothering to feed myself correctly, so I finally decided to start posting here so that I stop torturing myself with theories and a fanatical obsession with reading all the forums for hours. I feel like a balloon filling with more and more air, almost ready to burst.

I also feel a heart-rending amount of loneliness as I feel like no one understands me right now. Wait, when have I ever truly in the darkest, deepest, depths of my heart felt that?

So before I start regurgitating too much information in this introduction I will just give you this:

I hope you all are doing well, and if you aren't just listen to this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL4LNg-iyY4

This will make you the opposite of well but her emotions are so beautiful and uncaged: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehaEdXJGEdg

This is classical for when you feel a bittersweet longing in your heart: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUuusqy50yk

Sublime classical: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cNQFB0TDfY

Aww...buddy, I've been there. I know that feel. I wish I wasn't LIE and likely your conflictor because I want to show you solidarity and let you know it's a very relatable experience and that it gets better, that the agony shifts to being bearable and then to a totally different vibe. I'm worried if I talk too freely, I'll be all unhelpful. Ppl will show up here and respond to what you said soon, I suspect, like in the next day or so.

Hug.

[MidnightWilderness]

Thank you, it warms my heart a little to read it.