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Serious Left-Static Negativist
To the OP's Q: I never flirted with my identical, even though a kind of persistent flirting seems to be ingrained in me - - even though flirting is a part of me I have long-endeavored to eject.
[An aside on that]: I desire to eject it because I do not like to mislead people. I like to validate folk, as I find them interesting, and then that can give the wrong message. Example is three weeks ago I engaged in what I later realized more than one person present saw as flirting, with someone else's husband, that I just met and found interesting. I engaged him in conversation by the coffee urn, learning so MUCH about him because the large room full of people "disappeared", and our conversation had an immediate intense personal-ness to it. (I believe this intense 1:1 orientation is related to being sx-first, which does not always mean what people assume: being sexy all the time, in fact, ones values can altogether preclude that manifestation of sx-first ). I was meaning just to take an genuine interest in a person I just met, who unfolded to become more interesting as we talked, but when it is opposite-sex, that can be an issue. And ever since that incident I remain feeling very bad about the distinct possibility of making his wife uncomfortable. : ( Because after all that talking to him I had suddenly realized I had rather monopolized him, and made a point to introduce myself to her when he pointed her out walking by; and she seemed more hopeful to keep walking, and when she did backtrack to meet it was with reluctance and reserve, and her coolness convicted me, and I still feel shame for that, which is not going away easily.
Anyway, back to OP, though flirting seems to come naturally to me I do not recall ever flirting or being mistaken to have flirted with an IEE, though I always take an immediate interest in them. They strike me as a kindred spirit immediately, even before I have identified them as identicals (which comes to me soon), and I pay attention, and love seeing how they do and decide things and I relate to their thoughts and choices. Whether male or female I see and enjoy the differences between us, due to all the various things, besides their individuality, but also astrological influences, subtype, values, moral ideas, background and life priorities, but through all that there is that familiarity, that total understanding of their life choices. I really enjoy them, but the attraction factor never kicks in because it is too much sameness, and the sameness that doses attraction. Similar to how I react as a hetero/"cisgender" person to other women* -- WAY too much sameness for their to be any attraction. And the longer I know IEEs the less the possibility of attraction is there, because of the constantly affirmed sameness about them, and the feeling that I don't have anything of interest to offer, as my gifts are also theirs.
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*Likewise, I immediately identify maleness or femaleness in a person, making me wish I did not see what I see, which includes the reality of even the most excellent, most well-established transgenders that NO ONE else sees - and I wish I didn't, as I do not desire to uncover that which much effort has been made to cover up. When they have long been successfully established as their current gender, it is devastating to them to see their well-hidden reality reflected in someone else's eyes. This has happened twice, and I now endeavor not to let it happen again. Also the strong gender identification makes it challenging in our times to adapt to our time's newly evolved social requirements of folk wishing to be referred to with the odd personal pronoun-replacement of the plural they/them, when referring to themselves, a singular person (which is hard enough, but my mind so strongly sees gender that it is a real effort to eradicate that impression for the sake of honoring requested preferences, which I intend to learn to do. (It's challenging for an extrovert type, who unlike introvert types are unlikely to think through what they plan to say before they say it).
"A man with a definite belief always appears bizarre, because he does not change with the world; he has climbed into a fixed star, and the earth whizzes below him like a zoetrope."
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"Having a clear faith, based on the creed of the Church, is often labeled today as fundamentalism... Whereas relativism, which is letting oneself be tossed and swept along
by every wind of teaching, looks like the only
attitude acceptable to today's standards." - Pope Benedict the XVI, "The Dictatorship of Relativism"
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