Okay, so I consider myself to be ILI-Ni, but when I read the description of poLr Fe, something doesn't fit.
And yes, I am aware that I might be mistyped, but I just like to have decided on something.
Yes, I hate doing this, it makes me feel very uncomfortable. Sometimes even nauseous.The individual tries hard to never let himself "come apart at the seams" emotionally
What are strong feelings? If laughing, then I don't mind it, unless I am the only one. I feel vulnerable then. I am very careful with expressing anger or sadness. Crying makes me feel very ashamed, and I just don't know how to express anger.or even let out strong feelings publicly,
I very much relate to this - I want to avoid being vulnerable at all cost, unless I really trust someone, which rarely happens. I can tell people I love them, but it doesn't come confidently. I have to push it, even though I do mean it. The same with compliments or when talking about problems. And yes, I know that having to talk about your problems or complimenting people isn't necessary, but I try to do it more as a way of developing. I want to be more capable of expressing what I think or feel at the moment, even though it makes me uncomfortable.because displays of passion do not come naturally and make him feel self-consciousness and vulnerable to painful criticism.
I wouldn't say I seem emotionally neutral - I am capable of expressing emotion. However, people being too excited annoys me a lot. Like, just leave me alone. Stop being so loud.This makes the individual generally seem emotionally neutral and politely indifferent to excitement and agitation around him.
Yes, I dislike that. If I want to be cheerful and expressive, I will, but no one can decide that for me. Loud emotional expression quickly exhausts me, though I can laugh rather loudly when I'm hyper or in a good mood. I just want to be myself and not express myself in the ways people want me to.The individual deeply dislikes attempts by others to get him to "cheer up" or "join the fun", especially in the context of group activities with loud emotional expression.
The reason I doubt it, is because I frequently laugh and smile, but more because of manners than because I actually want to. Most of my smiles are fake.
Sometimes, when something really nice happens in my daydreams, I can smile in real life to myself, and when I chat with online friends, I can't control my smile at all. I quickly stop smiling when people comment on it, though. I only really epress myself in private. Normally, I guess I can come across as angry or cold, but I try to act friendly and mannerly towards everyone when talking, unless they have annoyed me.
ILI seems to be pretty unemotional in real life, but I don't really know if I'm unemotional. When I'm stressed, I smile and laugh, but not because I want to. It's uncontrolled and a reflex, a defense. On the inside, I can be very emotional. I have a lot of mood swings and can feel quite strongly, but at other times, I am not aware of my own feelings. When I feel bad, I tend to withdraw even more than normally. If I'm in a good mood, I can laugh and tell jokes.
Would this lead more to Fe poLr or not Fe valuing in general, or could this seem more like INTj?
By the way, I'm also a teenager, so poor control of mood/emotional expression is pretty common, I think.