I was friends with an esfp muslim arab girl and we exchanged social media outside of class but then the pandemic hit also i kept unadding her and adding her out of fear because i came from traditional roots and my borderline/fearful avoidant attachment and my liking her as more than a friend but she was surprisingly tolerant until one day i was getting tired of waiting weeks for a reply so i went on a rant, not directed at her, but more directed at the situation, and i deleted my instagram account because i kept getting salafi content (fundamentalist islam) and pro-dictator bullshit from my parent's home country and domestic american political content which was very conservative, too much for my liking (some of it was nationalist, yuk, and others were "democratic socialist") so then i tried creating an account to follow her back but i thought i was getting stalked by another girl so i deleted. months later, i texted her on instagram and another social media, one of which was open to the public, so her friends could see me writing to her, and surprisingly, a month later, she hasn't deleted my comment on facebook or blocked me on either, but she hasn't been on either it seems because she didn't see the instagram messages, and she never deleted the requests, but i kept withdrawing them out of fear. but i currently have one pending. but i did see changes in her followers and following numbers (not being creepy, i just have an eye for detail and keep visiting her page). as yu can guess, her account is private. so i do wanna let you know i am not a neurotypical, so etiquette does not come naturally, and i am not very aware of myself. can anyone explain? i keep overthinking. btw there was another time where it took more than a month for her to reply too. EDIT she also recently stopped working (lives with family i think) and may be busy with school.