What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?
I was in the medical field before the pandemic, mainly collecting blood samples. I'm very interested in anatomy, how the human body works, what keeps people healthy and what leads to sickness, the symbolism and religious imagery of it... it's all quite fascinating to me. It does get draining (no pun intended) emotionally speaking, while I care about the well being and health of the patients many of them are dealing with a lot on their plate in regards to their health, and I'm not equipped to deal with that.
What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?
On a daily basis I cook, clean, and organize for the family. Mainly to maintain an ideal living space for my sister who's sick, and prep for nurse visits in the morning. I enjoy baking, sewing, and music is a huge passion of mine. I love fashion and glamour, even if I think it's all for ostentatious show in the end, and this does seep into my everyday wear (pre-quarantine). The history of glamour and fashion is also a point of interest, I do have books on fashion and style ranging from the 50s (authentic vintage books from the time period) to today. I enjoy looking at how things were done then, what the "patterns and trends" were, how things go and come back into style, so on and so forth. I also really like anime and manga and I am a huge weeb.
What are your values, and why?
It's difficult for me to say, even though I know I feel strongly about things and can flare up... even if I don't feel prolonged attachments to these emotions and I don't like to vent about serious emotions that I feel will open me up to people in real life. But, I'm very much live and let live, if you aren't encroaching on another then I don't see why people should bother one another. I hate telling lies since I hate liars, and I'm very forthright when need be, sometimes to the point of being blunt and even "offensive" to others. I've always been a keeper of secrets, and have only told a secret to an authority once when that secret was endangering that person's life.
Describe your relationships with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?
Everything is very strained since my sister is recovering from a serious illness, I had to quit my job to support her and the family. I'm the black sheep of the family, they're all quite religious and I'm not. We had a lot of disagreements about that when I was growing up since I was always curious about the existence of a higher power and if they could be real. Mom is ostentatious, loud, and a massive people pleaser. Dad is insecure, nitpicky, over analytical, and critical of shit he knows nothing about. In the end though, as cheesy as it sounds, family is family... you live with them, you laugh with them, you cry with them, there's a bond. Who is it that will always be there for you in the end? And no matter what you believe in, I think everybody can agree that life is too short to hold grudges.
What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?
I don't really look for anything specific in friends. So long as we jam then we good. In a romantic relationship, I can't deal with someone too timid, soft spoken, and sweet. I really can't. I'll even feel bad with myself, such as "They're such a nice and adorable person, why aren't I more attracted to them?" you know? It just gets boring and stale, even though I know I'm not special for wanting some spice to a relationship. I'm not even inherently sexually attracted to people, I'd say, that comes with time. But when I feel a strong presence from someone it certainly gets my attention. While I don't necessarily like strained relationships where I need to walk on eggshells all the time, I do love relationships where there's a lot of emphasis on power dynamics. Who's gonna playfully overpower who and not get pissy about it, so to speak. It's all for fun.
What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?
The most massive conflict that happened most recently was this February I believe... it was a matter of miscommunication, stress, lack of sleep, etc. Mother didn't understand my intentions and thought I was rebelling against her at a critical moment, so she lashed out at me and then I put my foot down. Otherwise I'm pretty peaceful most the time.
What are your strengths? What do people like about you? What do you like about yourself?
It does take a lot to upset me, to get me to snap, and to get under my skin. I don't hold grudges. I'd say I'm a pretty good judge of character as well, not going off of clothing or anything like that, just off of personality and "aura" or whatever. The people who I know that have liked me have said that I'm very friendly and accommodating, that I listen well when they need to someone to talk to or to vent, that I'm not judgmental of what they tell me, that they know I'm not going to run around gossiping about what they tell me, and that I give good advice if they ask for it. I like how I'm not nosy, I don't stick my nose in other people's business and I really don't care for gossip. I like how I keep secrets. Ngl I really like how I remain unbothered 99% of the time.
What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
I'm bad at analyzing the distance between me and others, I've never liked to assume others and I are friends unless they called us so first. I can analyse interpersonal relationships, but it takes me quite a bit of time. However when someone has a romantic or sexual interest in me, I can usually tell. People tell me I'm too closed off in the way of my feelings and that I isolate too much, but whenever I talk to them about my feelings they tell me I'm too dramatic. People tell me I'm too brazen and that sometimes, I'm too quick to anger. I either think I'm too dull or too vibrant, I'm either too uninteresting or come off too strong. I'm not good at balancing myself in any way.
If you won the lottery and didn't have to work anymore, what would you do?
Pay off family debt, get my dad on a diet, pay for family needs. Get my sister the best possible care available. Shit like that. Hopefully after this pandemic is over, my sister and I could take a trip to Ireland and Scotland like she wants to~ Maybe even Japan since she's very interested in the culture there and also loves animu... just like me.
How do you behave around strangers?
I'm usually fairly quiet, distant, but still friendly when engaged and willing to make little quips if need be to lighten the atmosphere.
How do you react to conflict? What do you do if somebody insults or attacks you?
If there's conflict between others, I'm usually pretty quick to mediate if need be if that's my role. I don't care when people attack or insult me. I'll definitely be amused, maybe even a little flattered depending on who it is and our history, and why they decided to insult/attack me in the first place.
Would you ever be interested in starting a business? Why or why not? What role would you play in it? What kind of business would it be?
I have thought about opening a "business", yes. I'm a crafty person, I know how to sew, use resin, tie ribbons, make jewelry, make hair accessories, things of this nature... I used to wear a lot of my creations as a teenager since a lot of readily available accessories at the time were really plain, and children I would babysit, their older sisters, and their mothers would want to buy my accessories. I used to sell surplus I had in high school to other students, but I got shut down by the school.
How do you dress or manage your appearance?
My appearance and style changes fairly often! Before sister got sick and quarantine happened, I was gravitating towards a more 50's/vintage style, with the wet set hairstyle and the makeup done and everything. But I've dressed in pretty much every subculture.
What were you like as a child? How have you changed since then?
I was a quiet and curious child. Didn't interact with other kids much, and every school year I usually had a specific circle of new friends that I hardly ever deviated from. On the rare occasion that I did, I was usually pleasantly surprised with the new friend(s) that I made. In my teen years, I definitely became more outgoing and gained more gutso, and would even be ebullient at times. I can still be like this as an adult during social situations, especially as a hostess.
Do you like kids? Why or why not?
I do love kids! They're so full of potential and while they shouldn't be mollycoddled, their ideas should still be treated with respect and listened to. Kids are the future after all, they're the ones who are going to be taking care of the planet and humanity as a whole, and advancing our research and studies.
How do you feel about attention? Do you seek it out?
I don't think so. Not in real life, I'd say. I prefer isolation a lot of the time.
How do you approach responsibility? What do you tend to expect of others?
I'm quick to take care of duties, if that's what you mean. When it comes to family, I want to keep everything running as smoothly as I can emotionally. Taking care of duties and being responsible is going to help that.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what approach would you take, and why?
I'd be really worried about their freedoms and restrictions, how will I come off to them, will I be too harsh in the wrong areas and too lenient in others? I would let them dress however they wanted for the most part, and I'd be very proactive on their studies and encourage them to research whatever they'd like. I do think freedom of dress is vital, kids need to express themselves and it's not going to turn them into little rebels so long as they are taught manners and respect. If you think your kid is a shit head because of how they dress then I got news for you because there are girly girls and dude bros out there who are shit heads too. Academics are important if they want to pursue a specific field of knowledge or career later on in life. Also I just encourage children having a healthy curiosity in how things work. It always bothers me when kids would be shut up and shut down for simple questions, it really inhibits their potential.
What is your biggest accomplishment?
Probably getting through med school. I know how to use needles now so that's neat. I feel like I could make a pun out of neat and needle but I'm not gonna bother right now.
What was (or is) your high school experience like?
In freshman year, I had a group of friends that would all interact with each other. Probably the largest I ever had. They all moved around due to life goals, shit hitting the fan, friends turning against each other, so the circle thinned out after some time... I never bothered with the cool kids, I was never interested in being cool or joining cliques. So they just ripped off my style instead lol.
What is something you regret?
I regret not being more emotionally open as a teenager. I was really cold towards some of my then boyfriends when they didn't deserve it. I just wasn't ready to be that emotionally open so my bad.
Who do you admire, and why?
I like Hedy Lamarr a lot. Not only was she a glamorous film starlet, but she was also a pioneer in WiFi technology. I have to stan a stylish technological big brained queen or whatever people say on social media. I've never been one to look up to celebrities so just her I suppose. Otherwise, my grandmother since she taught me damn near everything I know (sewing, crochet, life lessons, etc).
What are your spiritual or religious beliefs and why do you hold them?
I'm not religious, but I'm seriously getting into dream interpretation. I have a lot of weird dreams and sleep is so precious to me since I hardly ever sleep anymore. The mystery of dreams too, why do we dream, even if it's just psychological vomit it's neat to try and toy around with it.
What are your political beliefs, and why? To what extent do you care about politics?
I'd vote for Bernie or Yang and I don't like Trump at all. I usually score Left on tests, essentially.
What kind of work environment do you prefer? What do you look for in a job?
Honestly, I want everyone to be doing their jobs. When someone is on their phone scrolling through Twitter, I think it's really disrespectful to everyone there. I'm not a "All work and no play" person but this kind of behavior just sets everyone back, and the more people who partake in it, the more the group gets set back. It's not fair for people who want to get back to their lives.
What is or was your favorite school subject and why?
I loved science, I was a curious child and I loved to learn and figure out new things and acquire new knowledge to things I didn't even knew existed! Reminded me of how small we all are and how magnificent the world and the universe is.
What is one common misconception that people have about life? Explain why it is wrong.
That there's an innate purpose to life. There isn't. It's wrong since you have to make your own purpose, by doing what makes you happy. Whether it be your hobbies, your crafts, serving your family, things like that. You do make and find your own fulfillment in my opinion, there isn't a pre-made purpose out there since everyone is inherently different. How is one purpose going to fit all people?
How do you see other people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I do see a lot of problems with society, but one of the most prevalent ones is people being paranoid of each other. No I don't have to agree with someone, but that doesn't mean I have to hate them just because I don't agree with them. Part of having a discussion is being able to set aside passions in order to see where the other is coming from. And this is coming from a pretty passionate person. People get so stuck in their ways on both sides claiming to be right and attacking each other that many of their discussions lead nowhere.
What do you do if you're not getting what you want? What approach do you use?
Depends on what it is. If it's something trivial then I probably won't care since most everything I do is for fun anyways, but if it's something I desperately need, then I'll think my way around it and maybe even look for loopholes lol. I don't like using "feminine wiles" or anything, not my cup of tea.
Are you comfortable taking leadership roles? In what areas? Why or why not?
In areas of moderation and mediation, sure. I'm able to see both sides of the argument and the variances to them, and in the case of moderation how they apply to the rules, the fairness of the events of what took place that led up to what happened, etc. I don't like having to plan out projects though. I hate planning things out and I'm not very good at it. I'm too carefree and I hate enforcing things on people like that unless it's dire.
How often do you get angry? What kinds of things make you angry?
I usually don't notice my anger when it comes to matters that relate to myself, but I definitely will notice my irritation. Peace is important to me, both in relations and of the mind. Things that make me angry though are people getting used and abused, I really won't stand for that.
What is one unusual trait or ability you possess? What makes you special?
I don't think anyone is special, unless you love them because then they're yours and they belong to you.
What is your sense of humor like? Do you joke around a lot?
Not saying everyone here has noticed me but... All I do here is joke and meme. Gonna have to say "Yes, most certainly" to the latter. I do quip fairly often even if I'm serious and somewhat removed from people, mainly to try and lighten up the atmosphere.
Your friend bursts into tears. What do you do? How does it make you feel?
This has happened to me before. The case that I remember most vividly happened way back in middle school. I just offered to hug her as she cried, and I held her in my arms and reassured her until she stopped crying and felt better. I felt terrible for her, her mom was yelling at her over the fact that I had visited, after all.
What is the best thing that happened to you during the past week?
A lot of the times, I'm up all night to take care of my sick sister when she needs help, right? So I get bored at night, and when I have the ingredients I bake her goodies. I'm usually not around when she's up during the day, but I happened to catch her the other day when she woke up. She went straight to the kitchen, looked around the counter, and said "Oh... Taffy made cookies again..." with a sigh of relief and happiness in her tired voice.
What is the worst thing that happened to you during the past week?
Back is out of wack. I was able to power through it for a good while, but I can't even carry out basic duties anymore without twitching violently. I think it's the somatization of stress, but oh well.
What is the purpose of life? What do you find personally meaningful in life?
I don't think there's any one, pre-designated purpose to life. I really love my family... and my cats.
Do you like surprises?
Not really. If they're gifts, then I don't like the pressure of them.