Here i posted that in another forum but since i got no answer yet i will try here, thanks.
I'am a 4w5 infp but have a very rough time figuring out my instinctual variants.
I'am not good at organising my life and taking care of daily tasks, actually i hate it. However in the other hand i am firghtened by the idea of ending up being sick, poor and helpless. So i have alot of concern about those SP related stuff but tend to always postpone them, also because there is a huge amount of stress related to those topics in which i'am not confident at all.
I want my life to be meaningfull and intense, i need to have a goal, but i always postpone the moment that i will leave everything behind and start my journey, a reason for that is that i'am never quite sure about who i trully am and what i actually want to do. I have every day a new big plan that i will find no more interest in the next day. However as i grow older i start to see some patterns as i understand myself more and i'am more confident with who i'am and what i want from life.
I also have a hard time figuring out what my place in society is. To which community i belong. I hardly take time to form bond with my neighbours. However i feel concerned with social communities and how they view the world. I'am also interested in History and how society evolved through time, i like to understand trends even though i don't follow them since i prefere to have my own personal taste and personallity.
I'am quite sur not being neither So/Sp nor Sp/So
I dont think to be Sp first at all so that also means no Sp/Sx
The Sx/So seems too extraverted and assertive for me, too exhibitionist and flamboyant. But maybe introverted Sx/So are different from the general description?
I'am torn between Sx/Sp and So/Sx
Sx/Sp is said to be mystical and i can see that in me, i always was drawn to the strange, the unkown, the occult.
So/Sx also seems to fit because i like being kind to people and having friends. Even though i'am very bad at maintaing lot of relations and i'am very socially awkward.