lmao, i love watching a good cat fight, keep going. I must say that Remiel is winning tho, he doesn't have to put in so much effort in his insults.
Anyways, update, yesterday I rode a boat on a lake for the first time in ten years and then I got really fucking stoned. 10/10 day for sure. Felt so free in the wind and the waves. Oh but then it all went to shit when my mom took my fucking phone away - remember I'm an adult. So now I'm forced to use my laptop, woo-hoo. She also locked me out of the house last night. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks I'm dead, but I was able to reach out to my gf on facebook. She said she could give me her trap phone if it comes down to that.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Last edited by Tonatiuh; 10-09-2019 at 05:13 PM. Reason: Replying to fresh meat
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Update: so my friend gave me some meth. More than I’ve ever had in my possession before andddd.... started off snorting one line but I felt like it wasn’t enough so I did more. Ended up maybe overdoing it but not to any point that it got bad; I’m really enjoying it. I ended up talking non stop a mile a minute: one story branches into a side story branches into a side story goes back to the main story branches to a side story etc... on the phone with my girlfriend. For several fucking hours. Then she went to sleep so I found another friend to talk on the phone with crazily, who I just finished talking to like 20 minutes ago cuz they had to go somewhere. But we’re gonna call each other again later because I have to keep going to let it all out. I even smoked weed out of both a bong and a pipe and it did nothing for me. Meth wins the arm wrestle.
This high has also convinced me of a new possible future: philosophy professor
Of course, that’s if becoming a celebrity doesn’t work out.
Anyways, my parents kicked me out AGAIN over something very stupid but - this time it seems permanent and I’m better packed this time with more things I didn’t consider to bring last time. I still have no money to my name and no job. I took pictures of my moms card information so I could use it for Uber’s and food and I’ve already spent everything on it ($75 I think?). I was a little nervous at first with no steps to take but I’ve come up with a couple options. Tonight I’m spending the night with my best friend who will offer me to move in when I have a job; but until then I’m either going to stay at a different friends dorm for roughly two weeks (when I get them $30 and 2.5 gs of weed upfront - it’s gonna be a challenge to find that. I might even get a job before I can acquire that lol.) OR my best friend said I can sleep in their car until that point.
Wish me luck!
I hope this all falls into place - that I can get a job, move in officially, and save money to go back to school and rub it in my parents face. The major concerns right now: how to get food and how to get more medicine when my supply runs short: :/
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
^ just wanna say it’s apparently so bad that my bestie was BEGGING me to be quiet for 30 minutes and kept making me smoke weed to chill. Also put on Netflix. Wasn’t working so she finally told me to find somebody to FaceTime and go upstairs lol. I was rocking back and forth/moving my body at the same as I was talking to my bestie and roommate, who probably felt even more agitated because they both just came home from work. She even gave me CBD gummies - I guess they helped me relax a little, at least my body but my mind and my tongue are still raging war. And then when I got upstairs they texted me to tell me to sit the fuck down because I was making so much noise from walking around.
Haha.
The funny thing is this is all just the real me but turned up to eleven. My bestie gives me a big dose of tough love at every corner and tells me that I’m just “too much” or “too extra” as a person and it can be hard to deal with. I don’t disagree, even I feel the burn I cause myself. Maybe one day I will find a cure to the restlessness but even then I probably wouldn’t take it - being who I am and doing what I do is always an adrenaline rush.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Extra, extra! Read all about “fresh meat”’s 12th page of fucking insanity!
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Hope itll work out for you. Probably will. Did for me
I feel like I wanna go back to the philosophy teacher remark just to make a point (which btw, my bestie was surprisingly approving of - I’m not used to this kind of encouragement at all, especially around my family. That’s why I breathe so much better when I’m not living at home, no matter how tough the situation is outside.).... all drugs are a spiritual journey of the soul. No matter what category - it’s not just a psychedelic drug thing. They all have the power to change your life in a good way or a bad way or in no way at all. Obviously psychedelics are the best at this; like I said my last acid trip totally changed my life and my perspective, or perhaps enhanced the picture I was already looking at. Weed, psychedelics, stimulants, opiates (well not sure about them for sure because I don’t do them and I don’t like them), uppers, downers. Everything is making you stare back in the mirror at your soul, and once you find it you’re either empowering it or fucking tearing it down (the latter mostly from becoming a piece of shit addict who will walk in purgatory for eternity. I can say that cuz ya know my therapist says I’m an addict and she’s probably right since I’ve been to rehab, which failed epically since I started partying with harder things afterwards.).
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Do more drugs, Professor Bled!
How old are you, OP?
I wanna be adored in the same way that I get hypnotized by people.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
@fresh meat is the same age as me. The difference is that I only seem to have lived a quarter of his experiences so far.
This is a bit depressing.
No, I won't snort snow.
“I want the following word: splendor, splendor is fruit in all its succulence, fruit without sadness. I want vast distances. My savage intuition of myself.”
― Clarice Lispector
As soon as I find potential suitors who shower me with love, suddenly all the drugs are gone. Love might save me.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Babs, you have traveled and experienced more culture than most here. Drug use alone is in one general category of experience, with subcategories within that. Feel free to skip it. Some have a harder time saying no to drugs. No reason to get depressed because you aren't a junkie yet. lol Neither is fresh meat, thankfully. I could blame that on weak but valued Se when he gets dragged along with the current of those he is surrounded by. But, I won't.
“My typology is . . . not in any sense to stick labels on people at first sight. It is not a physiognomy and not an anthropological system, but a critical psychology dealing with the organization and delimitation of psychic processes that can be shown to be typical.” —C.G. Jung
You have my permission to blame it on that, darlin’. But I just want to comment that my experiences are not just drug related! Life is a treasure trove. Unfortunately there still is a lot I haven’t had the chance to partake in - mostly due to money reasons, not having someone to do it with (I can’t do anything alone), parents, etc.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
So I smoked a lot of weed and went to a party of course where I smoked a lot more weed and drank a good amount of liquor. Yeah my typing is real good right now I’m trained. It was great at first, I was talking a lot to people, sharing substances, seeing people I knew that I didn’t expect to be there, I was bold and got a lot of attention. But by the end I was real quiet and uncomfortable, I felt like nobody liked me. Now I just texted my date from yesterday, really desperate for their attention.
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
Whatever her type is is my type!!!!
Someone please weigh in on this
・゚*✧ 𝓘 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒶𝒸𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉 𝒶 𝓁𝒾𝒻𝑒 𝓘 𝒹𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒹𝑒𝓈𝑒𝓇𝓋𝑒 ✧*:・゚
I'm pretty sure she's not IEE, but all of my typings are based on my own personal experience, and as anyone here can tell you, I'm wrong A LOT.
Here she is with the very SLI Seth Myers, who is drooling over her: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NI_O7_CoW14 He's doing that SLI thing where he's looking at her breasts while trying not to look at her breasts.
Normally, I'd say that this points towards her being his dual, but in this case, I think it just points to him being in love with Ne.