As the title say, I would like some input about my type. I know that I'm an introvert, and I think I might be an intuitive and feeler type. I've been into MBTI/cognitive functions for years and I got into socionics for some time now. I'm still fairly new to the quadras system since MBTI doesn't have any of that. I must say socionics seems, from an amateur point of view, much more complex and interesting than MBTI so I'm trying to get the hang of the system. If that counts for anything, I'm an INFP on MBTI and Enneagram 4 (4w5). As far as Jungian's functions go, I think I'm a heavy Ne and Fi user. I've seem that the way socionics uses/describes the functions is very distinct from MBTI, hence why I feel hesitant to self-type myself as an EII, but still I will let this info here because it might be helpful. I've done a few socionics tests (sociotype's, aimtoknow and two times a Russian one with 500 questions) and the results were inconclusive: EII-Ne on sociotype, ILI on the 160-questions test and on the Russian test, I got EII first and then IEI in the second time I've done it. One thing I've learned about tests is that they are flawed so that's why I asking for some help.
I kinda suck at describing myself but I will give it a go:
I’m really shy, kinda awkward, live inside my own head, and it’s very hard for me to talk about myself, whether it be in person or the internet. I like a lot of things. My interests seem to change from time to time and I think almost anything could spark my interest if I’m in the right mindset for it. Even so, there are some things I’ve noticed in the course of my life that have always been my main interests: I like studying foreign languages, and my interest in them has always been associated with geopolitical/social matters from where the language is spoken. At the moment, I could say that I speak 6 languages considerably well, besides my native language, and I also have some knowledge - ranging from basic to intermediate – of another 5. Given my introspective nature, I never liked playing as a kid, and at 8 years old I already began studying arabic simply because the Middle East interested me a lot, and I thought that being able to speak like they do was a way of understanding how those people think, in a way. After that I shifted to other languages on and on. I spent most of my childhood and teenage years drawing, mainly scenarios that I used to daydream about, transferring everything to paper. It’s been a very long time since I drew anything, but I’ve always seen myself as someone who values art, and I think that I need art to survive, as a way to “recharge” from the real world, which feels like an obligation and is tiresome to me. And with art I mean almost everything, like music, movies, paintings. I have a big predisposition to be fascinated by sadness, melancholy, and tragedy.
I think it’s important to mention that I’m a feminist, vegan, and very engaged with humanitarian causes in general. Especially to me, since I have some kind of moral compass built within myself, which, as utopic as it may be, I must live by. Being original and true to myself and to what I believe is of utmost importance to me. I like to think about the world, the state of things/status quo, in changes, in what has already been and in what has yet to come. I spend most of my time inside my own head ruminating about the world, mainly about human existence. But I’m an atheist and not at all spiritual. Speaking of which, I’d say I’m a bit nihilistic in my way of seeing many things.
Other interests of mine that have stayed with me ever since I was little and should be mentioned are: mechanics, physics, astrophysics, astronomy. I’ve always loved cars, and I really like to understand how these objects work, what they are capable of, what they become as the years go by.
Outer space has always been a huge interest of mine too, because the unknown enchants me, the greatness and the possibilities the universe has to offer, and of what may or may not exist (not necessarily intelligent beings) out of our limited space on Earth.
I also like philosophy, psychology, anthropology, and history-related topics.
People tend to see me as a really reserved person, sometimes even rude or insensitive, but this only happens due to my difficulty in expressing my feelings and letting others really get to know me. In reality, I’m not insensitive at all, I actually feel overwhelmed by strong and confusing emotions for most of the time. I’ve never had nor wanted to have a lot of friends, I don’t mind being alone and I usually prefer solitude rather than having to interact with the world and with people, because I get tired really easily and I don’t have many “people skills”. Besides, it’s much better to spend time reading something or inside my own head thinking about whatever I’m interested in the moment.
The only exception to this is my only friend, which also happens to be my girlfriend, with whom I don’t mind spending time with.
Thank you all for your time.