I'm very much like this. Do you find this is only common with sx types or could other instinctual types be predisposed to act this way? It's a very insatiable thing for me too. Even when I try to put it down and do something else, I find myself being helplessly drawn back to it. I really wish I could turn it off sometimes, but I never can.
I'm not really like this towards friends, because truthfully I don't find my friends all that interesting.If you direct it towards your friends there will be strong components of that hunger there, wanting to pull them in closer and closer wanting to know every crevice of their heart and mind in a way that nobody else could and selfishly guarding that from anyone else. Lust is the underlying pull in sx, a sense of "I want all of this person/idea/activity" which is why it's called sx.Maybe one or two, and I love our interactions together, but most not much, and I can be a bit closed off to those other friends too. In this sense, I can be a bit possessive (that's a bit strong of a word, but I do feel that's an element of sx) with those special friends, where I want them to have all their focus on me, and only have love for me, and no other friends, so like you say, I selfishly guard that, but I don't have to know every crevice of their heart and mind either.
With sx, it feels more like a hooking mechanism. Do you agree? I'm always searching for that "thing" that draws me in, hooks me, and then once I find it, I'm totally into it, in very unhealthy ways. It's very selective. I don't really think of it as lust per se because it's a lot more mental for me. Would that still be sx or something else?
I also don't really think of myself as a "sexual" person. I do not have sex dripping from my eyes, at least I don't think so, or feel I have to look hot and sexy, because I'm not really looking for a mate at the moment. If I was, I would put more energy into it, and certainly wouldn't want to not look hot towards potential partners, but is that really a requirement for sx? What if you were married or already in a relationship? You wouldn't necessarily be sending out mating call signals then either. I know that this wasn't your point, but I don't see why it has to be a requirement for one to be sx and seems to be focusing too much on external appearances, not that there aren't differences in how the types appear too but seems a bit restrictive.



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