I'm back. Don't know where to put this, but suffice to say, I had psychosis, so in traditional self management, I dropped off the radar, and worked on my self for a bunch of years, whilst shirking off all duties. I've done a ton of introspection and I can very easily summarize it.
So, I suddenly had a feeling of emotionality. I generally only cry when I have intense emotions, and that happened in public, for no apparent reason. Generally my emotions are triggered, for example, if someone does out on how their life is sad, and I care, and can do nothing.
This has lead to some odd developments in my life, but pretty consistent with myself. I've always been a lazy philosopher, but I really took it up a notch.
Still, the psychosis was readily apparent to come. I've always been a romanticist, in the 19th century sense, and more of a morose, permanently happy, permanently dissatisfied person. I'm more or less solidifying that now, and yeah. I'll also be contributing a lot more.
Now in socionics terms, I'm spitballing, but the implied is obvious. Fi. So yeah. I'm also 22, so if you care, implies entj. I've hung hard on introvert, because I typically have little face to face time, but do know autism exists into both sides of the family, and I am a pretty highly functioned person with Asperger's. I have switched psychological type quite a bit, but I am very much more satisfied with being ENTJ. Considering taking up lion taming, but I'm too indecisive on what to do. Ah, that phase where you try and find out what you want to do. It sucks. From what I hear, not many people move past it.
My original type, INFP would work, but I felt unconvinced with it, as I'm more or less not the most conventionally ethical religious person, I consider myself more of an intellectual philosopher. Then INFJ is was considered, but that's even worse. The writing bit is about right, but I am not the most emotional person.
I have, as noted, developed my own ideas of psychological type. One, the architect, is litterally Trump, my father, and a friend, and my father. Tends not to very heavily analyse things, is incredibly socially adept, but tends to make questionable decisions.
The other, is a classic romanticist, in the way of listens to heavy classical and such. I have seen two forms of this. One developed into an alternative, science fiction. He was an American British person, if you understand, which is unconventional alone, but it doesn't end there. Theoretically brilliant, but I think a lot of it is impractical. Also a heavy musician. As such, I believe those people to be INFj/ENFp respectively. One of them tried to figure out what music I liked after I showed him what music I liked, and he said the recording was bad. He seemed to me to be quite similar to the idea of that person I know of that only took one picture of himself, and it was him being backwards. Supposedly a famous pianist, friends with Liszt, but a recluse. He taught me basic piano technique, even though I was his senior. other was quite flamboyent, but not in a flaming way, rather he was very much that guy who sticks out like a sore thumb on purpose. He's who convinced me of pasivism, something I sometimes stuggle to adhear to, although the roots were there, he really just convinced me by speaking of what he'd do, and I just was like, well, not bad. I'll take it. And so, that is why I'm not in the military. I would very much enjoy military service. I'm weird like that.
As you might note, my biographical ability is very good. I have been told I have eidetic memory. I do not discount that I might be wrong, but hey. I will comment on discussion now, I am a ton more balanced, and also unbalanced, but you know how these things go.


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