Thank you for that analysis.

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I am glad I saw this, as I had been thinking about this. I don't relate to the SX 4 description either, since I think not only is it conflating it with possibly 8 fix, but likely strong 3 influence. I don't care about competing with everyone and everything and "being superior." Also sounds like Se ego.

Before I get to what I want to say about SX 4, keep in mind that jealousy and competitive feelings around the Sexual instinct should be pretty common to relate to (I think) for almost anyone, SX first or second. Possibly last as well, it's just that they don't focus on this very much.


Anyways, despite not relating at all to the SX 4 description, I think the subconscious aspect of probably any SX 4 - would still be somewhat of an underlying sense of bitterness, anger, and envy. They may not express it in that "I am going to destroy you" way...lol. But it may more so come out as perhaps a bite...when someone hurts you. There's still anger there, still bitterness, a tiny bit of needing to punish the other person for hurting them. But it's not nearly as horrible as the SX 4 description makes it sound. And yes, I think 9 fix and Se PoLR may affect that. And I think what I just talked about may be very unconscious.
I'm gentle to a fault. I'm very unforgiving and unforgetting, but I probably won't try to bite the person. It's more of an inner emotional thing, and a "I can't smile at this person (too much), and I can't initiate conversations with this person (too much). They did [...] to me.." sort of thing. So, if anything, the punishment (if you can call it that) is a withholding, I suppose, rather than an attack/bite.

In terms of jealousy/envy, I have this as well. When there's a woman I'm interested in, it's almost like just seeing her talk to someone else makes me feel jealous. I always feel that everyone is more socially (and sexually, for that matter) more successful than I am. But it's not that I necessarily deep inside of me want to be a popular social butterfly. It's more that I feel like the woman of interest is neglecting me, I suppose, by giving attention to other people.

So far, I haven't had a lot of problems with health or money, but I do love comfort and security, and I'm not reckless or a big spender. I've always saved my money, though money is not something I spend a lot of time thinking about.

When I'm interested in someone, I tend to want to get them alone, I suppose. I guess I've always had an aversion (atleast in some respects) towards group interactions. I always feel like the outsider, the quiet one, the third wheel..
And I feel like someone out there is saying, "but just because you don't like groups, doesn't mean you're not SO." Well, I guess I'm confused, and will never understand what these instincts mean.

Of course I want to be a little bit famous (not too famous or mainstream), remembered when I die, not be in a low position in society, and I want to help the world to grow and evolve.

I remember Olimpia typed David Lynch as Sp dom (Sp/Sx) because he's very particular about his home。She showed a clip of him saying that he doesn't like to cook in his home. I don't understand what this has to do with Sp.

But then again I don't understand anything about these instincts.