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First of all, vess, I appreciate the fact that you took the time to look through this mess of a thread. As for the questions, weeeell-- The thing with me and engaging is that we don't get along that well. I am rarely the one who hardcore-engages people. I am shy and feel nervous around new people, but I feel like I can be myself comfortably around them quickly. Besides standard social etiquette (which I am sometimes a bit oblivious to, but I swear it doesn't happen that often) I don't think I try too hard when it comes to interacting with people and during activities with them. I just speak my mind. Some of them find it funny, some of them find it weird, some of them don't agree with me and so on. I love showering people with compliments though , I just love bringing people's awesomeness, talents and so much more into the limelight. I can figure it does get a bit annoying at times, not to say how much I spam my friends with wholesome memes.

I don't actively try to flatter people. When I do it, it's sort of like a meta-joke. For example, those times when I'd go up to someone if I needed their help with something or wanted something from them, and I'd try to be as obnoxious and obvious as possible by saying "Have I ever told you how much I love you?/You look S T U N N I N G today", etc. Most of the times, they know it's a joke...I hope. I make it as obvious as possible so that they won't think I'm a genuine ass-kisser. So far so good.

The activity bit is tricky, because I don't feel like I have the drive and bossy-energy enough to include or initiate projects with others. Any group bigger than 3-4 people (me included) just fries me from the inside out. It does feel like I'm as smooth as sandpaper when it comes to social situations sometimes, but maybe that's my low self esteem speaking. And the anxiety, and the itchy, sweaty neck.

But yes, I'm nervous. Nervous but always myself, 98% of the time, unless the situation desperately calls for something else. I don't go out of my way to make an impression too often at all.