Well personally I've never been that suicidal- despite being abused. Suicide takes a level of "balls" I don't really have. Or maybe I just never had it that bad even though I definitely went through pain in my life. When I was really depressed I said 'life sucks and I want to die' but I was a hurt child in pain from being severely bullied. Nobody saw this or if they saw it- they tried to exploit it for their own advantage, they didn't really care. Or they entirely blamed me for my own suffering. "If you were more like this, X wouldn't happen to you" instead of standing up to the assholes. SLE and a few other types were the only ones powerful enough to stand up to bullies & protect me. I was truly innocent once- and people cruelly got off on trying to make me feel demonic in order to feel more righteous, because they couldn't confront their own demons.And it’s always in the late teens and early twenties, when society expects you be more adult and Te-like, when the suicidal mostly happen.
I was pressured to be more Te-like before that. "Stop playing video games & stop living in a fantasy world and pay attention to this Te document that is made to completely fuck you over and take away all your free will but because I said it in a serious and professional business-like manner, it's all okay!" (fake sociopathic smile) SEE I USED THE § SYMBOL SO THAT MEANS I'M MORE IMPORTANT AND BETTER THAN YOU!!!11 WHAT I'M SAYING IS OBJECTIVE AND MORALLY RIGHT EVEN THOUGH IT'S REALLY NOT AND I'M JUST SAYING THAT BECAUSE I WANT POWER TO GET AWAY WITH MY OWN FUCKED UP SHIT.