Thanks for the thorough explanation of your thoughts. I know you are not here for F relations but I think besides of what I said (which you can argue against sure), the LxE's do care about actively acting for public acceptance way more than you seem to and they cater to this actively. That's their "Fe role" (I dislike calling it role function though, it's IMO just the interaction of leading and suggestive, in the case of LxE's this is their extraversion with the Fi seeking). Your attention on Fe is nearly nonexistent really most of the time. Except when you spontaneously get to use those various fun emojis in jokes sometimes, in a certain way which seems rather Fe valuing "Merry" to me. : p (Sorry it's hard to describe this "certain way"... it's something to do with how suddenly it comes out of nowhere.)
Btw I relate to you in that I see nothing personal in the interactions with most people and my bad feelings are also weak and drop soon.
I think the lack of positive close relations would make anyone depressed, that's a basic human need. Just for Fi valuing types such relations are manifested differently than for Fe valuing types. Both still cater to positive close loving relations, just in different ways.
What types give you Fi activation?
Where you speak of being unmotivated without good relations with close people (e.g. "I had no motivation before, not much of emotional interest to life"), I think it takes more for LxE to get entirely unmotivated in that fashion. They are still extraverts who go out there and try to get new contacts. They remain in touch with some emotional motivation (higher extraversion, higher Fe too, and all that). Of course in very deep depression everyone becomes more introverted in a sense
As for lack of need on how to treat others... I think LxE cares about that in public too (extraversion, "Fe role"). It's also part of why they do not stick to their opinions so obstinately like you do (it's also of course the extraversion of Te over Ti). : p
How do you know for you this is not Fe that you have the muddy understanding about?It's like with suggestive of others. For example, not all base Ni clearly feel how they value money in relations - they may think like they don't care. But would feel badly in such case, mb without clear understanding why is so. People need suggestive support, but have muddy understanding.
Emotions (=feelings with extra/dynamic energy for action/interaction) are Fe, not Fi.Because I need closer relations than random dudes on forums to alow my emotions, to remove my protection blocks.
Hmm as for the comparison for ESI vs Fe types. Did the Fe types try at influencing you for that long? ESIs have definitely affected me to some degree before after a while of them trying at it enough - it's just not like Fe to me, unfortunately - but again, with Fe too it takes a looong time before I get influenced. You know, those "protection blocks".
Soul attraction... I had something like that with EII-Fi sister of mine. But again... it's not like Fe. Of course when I had no idea yet as to what that is like I was not consciously missing it, either.
Anyway, if you have had the experience of Fe types trying to influence you for long enough (again, when I say "long", I mean it), and you still found you preferred Fi emotionally, okay, forget my suggestion then.
Se Aggressor? : pI pull her from relations which she prefers to keep.
That's not specific to LSE.(LSE seems are not easy in romances, - hard to get significant feelings, to break relations, to forget ones, etc).
If you don't mind a suggestion - cut her out of your life. Otherwise you can't move on. It'll still take a while. My opinion anyway.As chances on relations with her became very low, the most reasonable would be to switch to other as soon as possible, what is not easy for me