I'm just bored.
Weird Stuff about Sx-firsts
I'm just bored.
C-EII-INFj 4w3 Sx/sp 479
Weird stuff... I am quite paradoxical in regards of it. First I want to completely connect, then need distance because "wow... that was too much, I'm losing control". So people think I'm weird because I can't tell where I'm standing with them.
they keep talking about "merging"
gotta merge
need someone to merge with
need more merge
what does that even mean
Phobic So/Sp 6w7 3w2 9w1
Bit of a comic books nerd, bit of a fashion nerd, a lot of a generalized nerd
I'll use SP terms to explain...Originally Posted by Stellafera
Eating you up. We're entitled to do that. Can't merge without devouring and incorporating. My stomach is comfortable for you to be in
no thanks I don't like stomach acidMy stomach is comfortable for you to be in
Phobic So/Sp 6w7 3w2 9w1
Bit of a comic books nerd, bit of a fashion nerd, a lot of a generalized nerd
That's exactly how pure SX kinda feels like, so
(Your typing as SO/SP is legit)
When I feel a real connection with someone, I get this feeling that I want to crawl into them and curl up.
“Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.”
― Anais Nin
I guess that makes a vague sense on a conceptual level, but the closest that this comes to my own experience is wanting to imitate someone I really connect with, wanting to take a leaf out of their book, wanting to explore more about them, etc. But it's more like seeing the color dye they use and buying that thread color than grabbing a needle and plunging it into the fabric between us or whatever. I've seen other So/Sp's use a metaphor of interacting with people through a glass wall and that's pretty much it.
Phobic So/Sp 6w7 3w2 9w1
Bit of a comic books nerd, bit of a fashion nerd, a lot of a generalized nerd
They're always talking about sex, and everything is just so intense! You have to tell everything about yourself, and know everything about the other person, and connect!
I think for so/sps... you almost get this spiritual connection not to a single person, but to like a "family" or a "group" or "society"... You want to be surrounded by all these people that love you and support you, and then you feel that all your security needs are met and everything is just right...
When I was like in first or second grade, I got a round of applause from the entire class, and I remember feeling the best feeling in the world... it was better than drugs... and now I think I know why I felt that way... I think that's what sx firsts feel when you give them a lot of love and "connection"...
Yep!
Got more weird stuff:
- I lean in way too much during convo
- Famous quote by me: "You're not radical enough"
- When there's nothing all-comsuming to do, I get into idgaf mode
- What's offensive to others is starting point to me, I always have to keep this in mind
- I decide quickly because I know my preferences, but fall into despair when something's 50/50
- I lose my sense of time 24/7 because I get carried away
- I'm desperate for the feeling of mutuality, but know I can't ever achieve it
- My temperament is difficult to grasp, other say its fiery but I disagree somewhat
- I can stare longingly at you without even blinking once
If you want to make a So/Sp happy, say something like "you're a part of the team". Face lights up like fireworks.
Phobic So/Sp 6w7 3w2 9w1
Bit of a comic books nerd, bit of a fashion nerd, a lot of a generalized nerd
I can obsess about a person so much that they start to appear in my dreams. This has happened too many times.
C-EII-INFj 4w3 Sx/sp 479
Same. Add daydreams as well. SX is like having another person implanted into your head once you're hookedI'm astounded every time how great this intense energy is. I don't know about you but being
ego doesn't help either.
@Chae Ugh it doesn't. I think of all the fucking possibilities and what I should say the next time I see them. I literally plan conversations and 'coincidences'.
C-EII-INFj 4w3 Sx/sp 479
Yeah. The possibility part is the Ne on top of it. I do that to an almost unreasonable extent, going through every situation that comes to mind. True about the conversations part. Oh yes the 'coincidences'
That's interesting, I want to tear them apart and eat them.
Reason is a whore.
song trigger
“My typology is . . . not in any sense to stick labels on people at first sight. It is not a physiognomy and not an anthropological system, but a critical psychology dealing with the organization and delimitation of psychic processes that can be shown to be typical.” —C.G. Jung
Hahaha, I was fond of this band and song as a teenager.
Reason is a whore.
“My typology is . . . not in any sense to stick labels on people at first sight. It is not a physiognomy and not an anthropological system, but a critical psychology dealing with the organization and delimitation of psychic processes that can be shown to be typical.” —C.G. Jung
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