Which type am I?

[lozengee]

Hello please read my questionnaire and try to type me. I trully appreciate every reply!!!

Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is a concept behind real or abstract objects that invokes gentle feelings.
Love is a coctail of instincts, hormones and of attachment, protection, reproduction needs. It is more than simply a feeling, it is a very intense drive and need to bond.

2. What are your most important values?
Modesty in a sense of acknowledging that oneself and subsequently other people are limited.
Respect. Not intruding the boundaries of others. Not exploiting anyone.

3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I am not religious, in fact i really despise religions and look down on religious people. I do not believe in superiority of humans; there is too much evil in the world.

4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Games of psychopaths.
Power is ability to control smth (people, Earth, outcomes - whatever).

Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
About psychology. I am very interested in personality theories, personality disorders, social sciences also paranormal stuff, lucid dreaming. I could talk and talk about these things for hours, because they drive me and i love explaining them to other people. In the future i might end up being a teacher of English grammar because i just looove explaining (NOT because i love English grammar)!!! I looove constructing the material and explaining it in the most digestable way - this activity is so pleasant and tickles my brain but i am not interested in teaching as such - fixing mistakes, being a centre of attention, marking - meh, does not interest me so much, it is just the talking part that attracts me.


6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
No, it makes me feel either like a child or like an old grumpy lady.
I am very much focused on my body - I can notice slightiest changes in my skin, color, weight, energy, numbness, tenseness. I am very aware that my emotions come from the body. If i control my body (relax tense muscles) i can feel better and control my anxieties.

7. What do you think of daily chores?
I aways do daily chores in an imperfect way on purpose. If I try to clean/tidy/laundry everything in a perfect way i go nuts. Perfection is simply unachievable. Therefore i always leave some mess to avoid annoying myself.

8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Favourite books: 1984, Master and Margarita. I love to books that give me food for thoughts. I can't stand books with a lot of action, don't see a purpose of reading them since they don't give me anything, not even entertainment.

Movies: Malena, Donny Darko, Inseption.

9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I am very unstable in my emotions, there is no calmness inside me.
Cry? Yesterday at the shop the cashier made a discount for one woman who asked for that but i didn't dare to ask and had to pay a full price. I went out of the shop and i felt hopeless because of my inability to ask (I live in a foreign country and have very poor skills of the native language) that the only thing which stopped me from crying was that there were people around, it was unfair i know, childish, but happens for me.

Smile? I can't help but smile back when someone smiles at me. Friends, homeless people, lecturers; i am grumpy, angry or sad - doesn't matter i can't help it.


10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
In nature, while listening to beautiful music. I hardly feel that i belong to humankind.

Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Avoidance. I avoid eating with people, going out. People soon notice that and feel rejected although that is just me. All my girlfriends tire me out to death, i am better friend of guys because they do actually understand me.

12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Other people think i know a lot of things. Well helloo, i spend most of the time online reading about something & i love talking about my findings.

I like my kindness, ability to value minor things others overlook (like nature, animals, silly activities like coloring), willingness to not abandon myself no matter of how others perceive me, hunger for more knowledge.

13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Someone to help me to understand myself and the world, tell me what to do - i am aways in need for guidance. Maybe help me with improving my social skills. Oh and with biurocratic stuff - documents make me extremely stressful, i never manage to do paper work without help.

14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I feel like dying. I run away from rut - i need my highs and lows. In a rut i feel anxious, like something is going to smash me around the corner.

People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like people who acknowledge the duality of them - that can separate the facade and their true self - these people have depth and are usually intelligent. I value respect, tact.

I cannot stand emotional pressure, people who are smiling at all times.

I get along with chaotic, emotive people. We supplement each other and they make me feel more alive.

16. What qualities do you want in a partner?
I don't really know. I just prefer guys in their 30' (i am 20). So maybe maturity, dominance. In a family, I'd be very happy to take a traditional role - to stay at home, raise children and take care of everyone.

17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
My main concern is that they would grow up adults who are able to follow their own path, know themselves, acknowledge and express feelings in an appropriate way. I'd always treat my children with respect and try to accept them the way they are without burdening them with my expectations.

18. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
It is a struggle of my life. I just can't blend in, i feel the need to not-belong, be an outsider. The most prevalent social problem is ignorance. If the truth/reality is unpleasant, people ignore it, do not dare to take resposibility.

[Exodus]

This isn't much information but the general impression is that you are an anxious, emotionally variable, yet reclusive person.

"I just can't blend in, i feel the need to not-belong, be an outsider."
"I am very unstable in my emotions, there is no calmness inside me."

These generally sound Beta NF.

If you like, you can fill out the questionnaire in my signature and/or make a video to provide more information.

[lozengee]

Hi, @thehotelambush thank you for your help! Your perception is right indeed. Here is answers to your questionnaire:

What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?

I study English philology and education. English was the subject in which i excelled at school; after graduation I wanted to study arts, philosophy or psychology yet i also wanted to be sure i have a stable income in the future, therefore English philology and educology seemed to be an optimal choice - I'd have some interesting classes along my way to getting a diploma allowing me to work in many spheres. BUT that is just for plan B. The older i get, the more i realise that i do not want a desk job. i feel like traditional stuff would bore me fast. Once i finish my studies, i will apply to be a plane attendant (i am very serious about this); i also want to be an ASMR youtube artist as a way to earn some extra cash. I am ok with manual jobs through, just please no desk job!

What are your values, and why?

Modesty in a sense of acknowledging that oneself and subsequently other people are limited. Because i don't want to be dissapointed in others or in myself. Having realistic expectations and not judging too harshly is the key to that.

Respect. Not intruding the boundaries of others. Not exploiting anyone. Because it goes against my consciousness. I hate HATE when people push me emotionally or try to play with my buttons. It causes me a lot of stress - i may be an edgy person inside but i simply cannot talk back or resist people - outside i am soft.

What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?

Reading a lot about psychology, conspiracy theories, animals - because i think it is an useful and pleasant way of spending one's time. Maybe it is worth mentioning that while i am reading i love just jumping out of my chair to walk around to digest the information for a sec, i just cannot sit still if something interests me.

Jogging, coloring, shopping, listenining to music - fun.

Describe your relations with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?

I have 2 close friends with whom i chat everyday and in a sense live a fused life. I am not good at making new friends nor i feel the need to. Small talk, masks, fakeness, need to laugh at jokes tires me out - i am very happy that i have these 2 friends with whom there is no need to do these things.

Like:
1) Friendliness. I value people who are not turned off by my lack of initiative and still try to befriend me.
2) Insight.
3) Respect. No lines like "i told you so", insults.
Dislike:
1) i dislike when people place a lot of emphasis on what you do, social etiquettes - just exterior in general. It is unimportant in my opinion - what is important is one's perceptions, thoughts, feelings. I couldn't care less how old a person is, what he does for living.
2) Ignorance. Ignoring the facts, unwillingness to change one's opinion if it clashes with the facts.

What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?

Someone to support and listen to me. An ear, a shoulder. Someone to be to me by my side.

What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?

We are no longer friends with a girl i used to be quite good friends with. She was getting on my nerves with her constant need to correct me in minor things (like mispronouncing words), with phrases like "i told you so", inability to ever be worse than me. I asked her not to do it many times, but she didn't listen so once i lashed out at her and she got extremely pissed off. ***s.

I am not a confrontational person though. I don't encounter many conflicts.

How would your friends describe you?

Interesting, original, smart, understanding.
Unstable in my decisions, wishes, moods. Too timid with people, sometimes too silent.

What do people generally see as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
My knowledge. I read for the most of my time + i like to express my opinion so yah.

What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
Lack of sociability. I hear questions like "why do you always stay in your room", (i live in a dormitory) all the time. I really wish i'd enjoy more being around people. I feel girls are expected to be way more social than me.

In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?
I manage my life pretty well in all spheres except document stuff. I always ask for help when i need to get some documents done, i am very afraid to mess this stuff up.

What things do you find to be a chore? What things do you enjoy more than others?
Chore - laundry, any kind of homework.
I enjoy exams - it is like a challenge. Dressing up nicely, giving presentations in front of the audience, shopping for groceries.

What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future? How did you come to have them?
I want to visit New Zealand, Malaysia, Thailand - it is a completely new world for me i want to get to know their culture so much!
Be a flight attendant - random
Create ASMR videos - i love watching these videos and think creating them is so much fun. I'd get some attention, it is creative, relaxing.
Marry, have children - when i get older, i think i'd be really happy being a mother

If you had enough money to live comfortably for the rest of your life without working, what would you do with your time?
It'd change month to month. I'd work, then travel, then just relax... depends on what i'd be up to, i can't decide.

What did you do last Friday?
Sleep.

[Exodus]

What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?

I study English philology and education. English was the subject in which i excelled at school; after graduation I wanted to study arts, philosophy or psychology yet i also wanted to be sure i have a stable income in the future, therefore English philology and educology seemed to be an optimal choice - I'd have some interesting classes along my way to getting a diploma allowing me to work in many spheres. BUT that is just for plan B. The older i get, the more i realise that i do not want a desk job. i feel like traditional stuff would bore me fast. Once i finish my studies, i will apply to be a plane attendant (i am very serious about this); i also want to be an ASMR youtube artist as a way to earn some extra cash. I am ok with manual jobs through, just please no desk job! sensing, maybe also extroversion

What are your values, and why?

Modesty in a sense of acknowledging that oneself and subsequently other people are limited. Because i don't want to be dissapointed in others or in myself. Having realistic expectations and not judging too harshly is the key to that. sounds Delta, and

Respect. Not intruding the boundaries of others. Not exploiting anyone. Because it goes against my consciousness. I hate HATE when people push me emotionally or try to play with my buttons. It causes me a lot of stress - i may be an edgy person inside but i simply cannot talk back or resist people - outside i am soft. again seems like devalued , valued and

What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?

Reading a lot about psychology, conspiracy theories, animals - because i think it is an useful and pleasant way of spending one's time. ? Maybe it is worth mentioning that while i am reading i love just jumping out of my chair to walk around to digest the information for a sec, i just cannot sit still if something interests me. this is unusual, sensing and/or ethics maybe

Jogging, coloring, shopping, listenining to music - fun. more

Describe your relations with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?

I have 2 close friends with whom i chat everyday and in a sense live a fused life. I am not good at making new friends nor i feel the need to. Small talk, masks, fakeness, need to laugh at jokes tires me out - i am very happy that i have these 2 friends with whom there is no need to do these things. again subdued

Like:
1) Friendliness. I value people who are not turned off by my lack of initiative and still try to befriend me.
2) Insight.
3) Respect. No lines like "i told you so", insults.
Dislike:
1) i dislike when people place a lot of emphasis on what you do, social etiquettes - just exterior in general. It is unimportant in my opinion - what is important is one's perceptions, thoughts, feelings. I couldn't care less how old a person is, what he does for living. >
2) Ignorance. Ignoring the facts, unwillingness to change one's opinion if it clashes with the facts. ,

What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?

Someone to support and listen to me. An ear, a shoulder. Someone to be to me by my side.

What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?

We are no longer friends with a girl i used to be quite good friends with. She was getting on my nerves with her constant need to correct me in minor things (like mispronouncing words), with phrases like "i told you so", inability to ever be worse than me. I asked her not to do it many times, but she didn't listen so once i lashed out at her and she got extremely pissed off. ***s. sounds like sensitive , likely Suggestive or Vulnerable or Role

I am not a confrontational person though. I don't encounter many conflicts. not much

How would your friends describe you?

Interesting, original, smart, understanding.
Unstable in my decisions, wishes, moods. Too timid with people, sometimes too silent.

What do people generally see as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
My knowledge. I read for the most of my time + i like to express my opinion so yah. /

What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
Lack of sociability. I hear questions like "why do you always stay in your room", (i live in a dormitory) all the time. I really wish i'd enjoy more being around people. I feel girls are expected to be way more social than me.

In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?
I manage my life pretty well in all spheres except document stuff. I always ask for help when i need to get some documents done, i am very afraid to mess this stuff up.

What things do you find to be a chore? What things do you enjoy more than others?
Chore - laundry, any kind of homework.
I enjoy exams - it is like a challenge. Dressing up nicely, giving presentations in front of the audience, shopping for groceries.

What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future? How did you come to have them?
I want to visit New Zealand, Malaysia, Thailand - it is a completely new world for me i want to get to know their culture so much!
Be a flight attendant - random
Create ASMR videos - i love watching these videos and think creating them is so much fun. I'd get some attention, it is creative, relaxing.
Marry, have children - when i get older, i think i'd be really happy being a mother ,

If you had enough money to live comfortably for the rest of your life without working, what would you do with your time?
It'd change month to month. I'd work, then travel, then just relax... depends on what i'd be up to, i can't decide.

What did you do last Friday?
Sleep.

1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is a concept behind real or abstract objects that invokes gentle feelings. /
Love is a coctail of instincts, hormones and of attachment, protection, reproduction needs. It is more than simply a feeling, it is a very intense drive and need to bond.

2. What are your most important values?
Modesty in a sense of acknowledging that oneself and subsequently other people are limited.
Respect. Not intruding the boundaries of others. Not exploiting anyone. >

3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I am not religious, in fact i really despise religions and look down on religious people. I do not believe in superiority of humans; there is too much evil in the world.

4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Games of psychopaths.
Power is ability to control smth (people, Earth, outcomes - whatever).

Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
About psychology. I am very interested in personality theories, personality disorders, social sciences also paranormal stuff, lucid dreaming. I could talk and talk about these things for hours, because they drive me and i love explaining them to other people. In the future i might end up being a teacher of English grammar because i just looove explaining (NOT because i love English grammar)!!! I looove constructing the material and explaining it in the most digestable way - this activity is so pleasant and tickles my brain but i am not interested in teaching as such - fixing mistakes, being a centre of attention, marking - meh, does not interest me so much, it is just the talking part that attracts me. Lots of here, probably lead. Interesting that you use the word "explaining", typically that would be more . Dislike for mundane details -- lower


6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
No, it makes me feel either like a child or like an old grumpy lady.
I am very much focused on my body - I can notice slightiest changes in my skin, color, weight, energy, numbness, tenseness. I am very aware that my emotions come from the body. If i control my body (relax tense muscles) i can feel better and control my anxieties. ,

7. What do you think of daily chores?
I aways do daily chores in an imperfect way on purpose. If I try to clean/tidy/laundry everything in a perfect way i go nuts. Perfection is simply unachievable. Therefore i always leave some mess to avoid annoying myself.

8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Favourite books: 1984, Master and Margarita. I love to books that give me food for thoughts. I can't stand books with a lot of action, don't see a purpose of reading them since they don't give me anything, not even entertainment. >

Movies: Malena, Donny Darko, Inseption.

9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
I am very unstable in my emotions, there is no calmness inside me. low , likely high
Cry? Yesterday at the shop the cashier made a discount for one woman who asked for that but i didn't dare to ask and had to pay a full price. I went out of the shop and i felt hopeless because of my inability to ask (I live in a foreign country and have very poor skills of the native language) that the only thing which stopped me from crying was that there were people around, it was unfair i know, childish, but happens for me. weak (and devalued?) is probably a factor here

Smile? I can't help but smile back when someone smiles at me. Friends, homeless people, lecturers; i am grumpy, angry or sad - doesn't matter i can't help it.


10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
In nature, while listening to beautiful music. I hardly feel that i belong to humankind. , ?

Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Avoidance. I avoid eating with people, going out. People soon notice that and feel rejected although that is just me. All my girlfriends tire me out to death, i am better friend of guys because they do actually understand me. perhaps this is just intuition. suggests more introversion though.

12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Other people think i know a lot of things. Well helloo, i spend most of the time online reading about something & i love talking about my findings.

I like my kindness, ability to value minor things others overlook (like nature, animals, silly activities like coloring), willingness to not abandon myself no matter of how others perceive me, hunger for more knowledge. ,

13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Someone to help me to understand myself and the world, tell me what to do - i am aways in need for guidance. Maybe help me with improving my social skills. hmmm... Oh and with biurocratic stuff - documents make me extremely stressful, i never manage to do paper work without help. low /

14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I feel like dying. I run away from rut - i need my highs and lows. In a rut i feel anxious, like something is going to smash me around the corner.

People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like people who acknowledge the duality of them - that can separate the facade and their true self - these people have depth and are usually intelligent. I value respect, tact. more vocabulary

I cannot stand emotional pressure, people who are smiling at all times. ignoring? or just subdued

I get along with chaotic, emotive people. We supplement each other and they make me feel more alive. This seems contradictory to me...

16. What qualities do you want in a partner?
I don't really know. I just prefer guys in their 30' (i am 20). So maybe maturity, dominance. In a family, I'd be very happy to take a traditional role - to stay at home, raise children and take care of everyone.

17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
My main concern is that they would grow up adults who are able to follow their own path, know themselves, acknowledge and express feelings in an appropriate way. I'd always treat my children with respect and try to accept them the way they are without burdening them with my expectations. very Delta

18. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
It is a struggle of my life. I just can't blend in, i feel the need to not-belong, be an outsider. The most prevalent social problem is ignorance. If the truth/reality is unpleasant, people ignore it, do not dare to take resposibility.

Sounds much more Delta NF now. The breadth of your interests maybe points more towards IEE but you seem to be ok at . Shyness is also a major theme that I wouldn't expect quite as much from an IEE.

[lozengee]

Sounds much more Delta NF now. The breadth of your interests maybe points more towards IEE but you seem to be ok at . Shyness is also a major theme that I wouldn't expect quite as much from an IEE.

After reading about quadras, i definitely relate most to Delta. Yes, i think my Si is strong (if i understand it correctly) - i am very attuned to my body indeed, it is very important for me to live in aesthetic environments and look aesthetically myself, comfort is a must. I am thinking about SLI. Would you see me as SLI, what do you think?

[Exodus]

After reading about quadras, i definitely relate most to Delta. Yes, i think my Si is strong (if i understand it correctly) - i am very attuned to my body indeed, it is very important for me to live in aesthetic environments and look aesthetically myself, comfort is a must. I am thinking about SLI. Would you see me as SLI, what do you think?

Actually yes, that could work! Making ASMR videos and wanting to take a motherly role does suggest strong Si.
You say you like to talk about your interests -- tell me about one of your non-socionics interests.

[Jake]

H-P Cognition, Fi/Te

[lozengee]

Actually yes, that could work! Making ASMR videos and wanting to take a motherly role does suggest strong Si.
You say you like to talk about your interests -- tell me about one of your non-socionics interests.

It may sound very unnatural because i am not exactly sure of you mean - if i should explain the subject itself or why i like it, well if it makes difference at all as long as i am explaining . Now i am very fascinated by the link between humans and nature (i have a class on that). There are many ways of relating to environment - animism, neo-marxism, naturalism, human ecology etc. Yet even tough they differ, all of them are correct, they are ways of seeing the same thing. Animism and totemism are the oldest ways of relating - these views are indigenous in a sense that they are oldest. It is needed to note that just because they are indigenous, it does not mean that they are inferior to other views - all they views have a logical basis. The contemporary view we see mostly in our society is naturalism. And if i needed to explain it further, i'd explain the views itself further from animism (oldest) to post-cybernetics (most recent). Honestly, i think a class like that should be incorporated into every university study; it is a vital knowledge in my opinion - to see the depth of other ways of relating to nature than contemporary one, to acknowledge human's place in the web of life, awareness raising.

[lozengee]

H-P Cognition, Fi/Te

I have read about HP cognition and can relate to that a lot. So you think i am closest to IEE? I was thinking i may be SLI, but they apparently have vortical-synergetic cognition. This type of cognition is a little difficult for me to grasp, but what do you think? Maybe you could expain it to me in your own words?

[Exodus]

It may sound very unnatural because i am not exactly sure of you mean - if i should explain the subject itself or why i like it, well if it makes difference at all as long as i am explaining . Now i am very fascinated by the link between humans and nature (i have a class on that). There are many ways of relating to environment - animism, neo-marxism, naturalism, human ecology etc. Yet even tough they differ, all of them are correct, they are ways of seeing the same thing. Animism and totemism are the oldest ways of relating - these views are indigenous in a sense that they are oldest. It is needed to note that just because they are indigenous, it does not mean that they are inferior to other views - all they views have a logical basis. The contemporary view we see mostly in our society is naturalism. And if i needed to explain it further, i'd explain the views itself further from animism (oldest) to post-cybernetics (most recent). Honestly, i think a class like that should be incorporated into every university study; it is a vital knowledge in my opinion - to see the depth of other ways of relating to nature than contemporary one, to acknowledge human's place in the web of life, awareness raising. Basically to raise morality.

Hmm, ok...I thought that might tell me something about your personality but maybe not. The link between humans and nature is Si but on a more abstract level.