Instead of starting the day with news of the world and burning through my bullshit-tolerance reserves, I googled images of beautiful women this morning and one face stood out (indicating an Imago ), which led me to this page:
Paulina Porizkova is Czech, and at 51 still looks great, but I think it is her bone structure and her eyes that I noticed. She has a regal (like my ex) and beautiful (like my duals) face, and there is something about her that reminds me of my female family members, who are also half- or entirely Czech.
+: Intelligent, valued education, compassionate
-: Abusive, violent, critical, spiritually and mentally empty, petty, reactionary, arrogant, pretentious, gluttonous, people-pleasing, repressed, repressive, not introspective
What I wanted most as a child and didn't get was for my father to die. Freudian.
As a child, I had these negative feelings over and over again: that I was trapped; that I was inhuman or subhuman; that I wanted to escape; that people were intellectually and morally disgusting; that I wanted to die, or else leave human society forever.
The positive traits I definitely care about in a partner. The negative ones I assume I should want the opposite (and do). The bolded negative traits are also traits that I struggle with myself.
Gods and men name her Aphrodite...Cyprus-born, because she was born in wave-dashed Cyprus; and lover of smiles, because she emerged out of the genitals.