Ok, I've read quite a lot of material on socionics and I'm going with ESI because I do relate to Gamma SF values a lot but not the Ni-ego material. Te-ego is also questionable since I tend not to look at manuals or adhere to standard procedure e.g. when I started to learn guitar, I just purchased one, fiddled around with it and learnt to play my favorite songs. I've played guitar for 8 years now and I don't have any grades to show for it, which makes me think I'm probably not a Te-ego type as they would want external, measurable proof of proficiency.

Overall, the Gamma NT material sounds more like how I try to be rather than how I simply am. It's like I have to find an excuse or a loophole in the material I've read in order to identify myself with it. For example, every source I've read and victims I've interacted with or whose posts I've read all describe them as victims, maybe not to the same degree as other victims but still victims nonetheless. I can't just ignore my past relationships that outright contridict that. Even the non-sexual dual relationships don't sound right as I live in the moment/near future anyway so wouldn't need an Se-ego to bring me into the moment.

So that's it folks, thanks a lot to everyone who contributed to helping me find my type. If I'm wrong then I'll be back here but I'm sure this is my real sociotype, not one of the ones I try to behave like. I even look like the VI ESIs