Sometimes I feel I was more like an sx/so when I was younger but then again I never had a good grasp on social dynamics or how to bring about any kind of social change or awareness. I rebelled against restrictions on my personal freedom more than anything and that was the source of most of my conflicts with authority.
To this day I have very little awareness of politics or even what the current issues are. I know nothing about what is going on with celebrities, or who is getting with who. or who broke up. It is not that I don't like hearing about some of this stuff now and then but I do not seek it out on my own. People with so first or so second are really helpful with this stuff. They can also keep me current on fashion which I do like, especially shoes. Music is something I do keep pretty current with but I love a lot of older stuff like from the 90s.

Even when part of a group I feel like it is "the group" and I am on the periphery of it. I will make a couple good friends but never feel really a part of the group as a whole but I am actually fine with that. I like to see myself as an observer and it gives me a broader perspective. It was in my very early 20s, when I lived in NYC, where I met friends who were very socially aware and cultured. They told me how to make changes in how I spoke and acted around others so I didn't come off as uneducated and trashy. It hurt at the time but I also took it to heart. They knew I was intelligent but said I didn't present myself that way. That really shocked me into paying attention to how I was presenting myself but I have been very self-conscious since then. Always questioning how I am coming off to others.

I often think that anything I post will be misunderstood and I find myself deleting a lot of things. I have been here for awhile now but I still feel like a lot of you are "the group" and I am just some outsider who posts random things that have meaning to me but others think they are irrelevant or innapropriate. I will sometimes feel very connected to someone's posts and want to say, "me too!" but with some people I stop myself before responding and will just "like" their post instead. It is easier since responding can lead to discussions and I am not always sure if I want to have a full discussion in public.

It doesn't matter how many friend invites I get on FB because I always feel people there just add me by reputation and know nothing about me. I can tell when I offend someone because it is usually right after a post I make where I express myself without restriction that they remove me.

The friend's list here is a bit different than there though. I don't add a lot of people but when I do it is because I enjoy reading their posts. It just so happens that when someone here adds me, it is also someone who's posts I enjoy reading, so it works out. In that way it is different than FB.