Quote Originally Posted by Aylen View Post
Why is it no good though? I rarely talk to people outside my current sphere of mutual influence including some family members. If I am in ongoing communication with someone it is usually serving a purpose for both of us. Sometimes it is emotional and sometimes information or energy exchange. I do not want to feel like I have to force myself to communicate when there is no reason to. Sure I will randomly send a friend a message of support if it comes to my attention they are going through something but in general I do not keep up with anyone I am not interested in sharing an experience with right now. People outgrow each other all the time and I don't think anyone should feel bad about being in a different place. I don't want stagnant relationships built on expectations. Not saying you do but some do guilt others for not maintaining long term bonds. Not saying you are. I have said I still feel as much love and caring for most people I was close to in my past but when I try to talk to them now sometimes it just feels awkward or like work because we no longer share personal interests. so then it sort of naturally fades away again.
Why, well if I have made a great connection with someone I shouldn't just let it fade away as long as it still works for both of us. Nothing I said implied anything about stagnant relations. I'm simply very prone to focus on tasks and goals instead of people so if I did not do this conscious focus on people, I would not at all have a chance to share anything with anyone. I can't expect anyone to always take up the task of contacting me while I'm never doing it myself. I have too many faded away relations from the past already. Btw I'm like you with that I'm still just as interested in them as before even without keeping up the contact regularly enough but I just find that way of living no longer satisfies me.

I do know that from most connections you cannot expect that the connection will stay strong and with you forever, maybe not from any connection whatsoever - that would be sad though and I don't really want that to be true -, what I find satisfying or even exhilarating about this world though is that one can always be on the hunt seeking..