I have been quick to sacrifice those things in the clutches of my first instinct. I could say I have taken them for granted. I am trying to be more appreciative of the these things because in the past I have walked away from everything I owned to satisfy first instinct, without regret. There were also periods of domestic bliss during that time. I think that is why I am better suited with an sp/sx type to help me stay grounded. I have longer periods of domesticity with an sp/sx than any sx first. For me getting into romantic relationships with another sx first is like playing with fire. My instinct, I think, is stereotypical in the sense that I would give everything up for that intense one on one connection with another human being (when it is reciprocated) even if it means going down in flames.
Rising like a phoenix from the ashes is a main theme for me.
There is a sense of urgency and it can be stressful. Even my Ni could not stop me from pursing things I knew would not end well. Usually in the name of love. I saw it coming and felt almost powerless to alter the outcome. I have a better handle on things now but, damn...
I imagine it just looked irresponsible to those witnessing but it was a matter of priorities for me. I have also grown up a lot and that makes a difference. Those who have known me my whole life just validate that I was probably born sx first. The stories they tell.
Disclaimer: This is just my experience of being sx first. I am not speaking for others who self type the same as me but in conversations with other sx first there are a lot of similarities even if they were not as extreme as me.
Edit: I do not like rollercoasters and I refuse to hold a gun because it gives me very bad vibes to do so, even when not loaded. I am fine with knives though.![]()




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