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Hi all, thanks for the welcome :-)
(and the account activation, I no longer see the yellow warning message!)
Alright so most say NT alpha (again), basic Psychology tells me I did insert a primer here, but hey maybe the Ne is just radiating. :-D
Yesterday I read up on all of the the Ne personality descriptions at the front page (again). Oh also I read the LIE description, but I feel there is nowhere I correspond to Jack, yet very curious William, what might you think I do? I have (or had) a friend who presumingly is LIE and albeit different, we shared this connection of friendly competitiveness and posing a challenge towards each other, yet he always was so much more 'structured' than me, was steps ahead, picked one strategy, and rolled me over. Heh. Good days. He is also the one who introduced me to the Dexter TV series, and I really like it, although it may in the end have nothing to do with ENTj.
So yeah the Ne descriptions, well actually I turned quickly to the female duality pictures, I have to say, that of all the female pictures, I am most attracted to the ISTp, ENFj, ESFj (although not this one, although he has the smile, but in the Alpha Quadra space I sometime see pictures posted of presumingly ENFjs like Lindsey Stirling, and there were some others.) They just make sense to me, from a perspective as a compatible partner, hmm...looking at it now ;P I guess the ISFp too, I have to say I really think that my ex-girlfriend was a ISFp, it's like we were best friends, just being together felt good, her smiles, her radiation is what I miss most, at the same time, she always felt to have such an unstructured chaotic mind, and was prone to make these illogical statements to appeal to their friends, I was like, morally inclined to speak my mind about. In the end I felt I needed directions, where she felt in the way, but she never was, she gave purpose to my own chaotically ordered mind. I am a little ashamed, but really not much to say that she took care off me in ways, the feeling was corruptingly wonderful, social events bring the gf and she would do the small talking, at the same time, I fixed the tech stuff, but I guess I stepped over my border by cleaning up too much of her mess. Later in life I attracted to more, i guess logical, or orderly brain women, particular this fine girl who I was never able to beat in any game, that was such attraction and challenge! On our first date, we played chess, and once I felt unable to win, oh well, it was time to move on to those others thing we had in mind anyway. She had this strong feel for the absurd and artsy things. But hey, maybe she was not by definition a logical type. Then again we weren't able to sleep strangled into each other, as that is basically the only way I share the bed.
Well OK, I do talk a lot, something I don't seem to recall to have done so much when I was little. Reading that LII descriptions gave me most resemblances in terms of my early childhood. The well-read kid, observing, analyzing, I mean I still do it all the time. Compared to the ILE on the other hand, I don't see the early childhood connection, maybe it's because of my upbringing, my dad was really strict, or lets put it differently you can't argue with him, but if you wanted something he was fine about, it was like the world upside down, he would support you do it it that way. So in the house, it was his house, or my mums, heh I guess that's when they differed :-) Well on the street, I spoke my mind, interacted with many children, had my own group, did what kids do, many fond memories of being known in the neighbourhood and having fun with many of the other kids. Well but there were the conflicts with adults as other kids. The adults were easier, they might get upset, but it would never come to a fight. Fights, normally I was able to keep those at a distance, just by posturing, I was always big, so that worked in most situations, though those who got to know me and my soft demeanour could easily punch through and I felt very soon out of stamina to keep up this crazy behaviour. One time outnumbered and outskilled, I just had no chance, and another time with the numbers on our side, but I guess the out-aged factor was too much as my name calling was probably not confident enough to persuade my two friends to take the stand. As I always enjoyed sports I always felt the sprinter, not a runner. I love speed, any game or skill that features agility is mine to master. But I guess that being in the 'popular' group was starting to get really hard once the group found how to condemn me for knowing more, as knowing as they saw it wasn't per se cooler any longer. Upon entering high school I basically dropped all physically pursuit, tried to get through by focussing on my mental capacities, however having lost a sense of realness and motivation almost cost me graduation.
Little depressed and moody here and there, but I do agree I am outgoing, if that is enough to qualify for Extroverted. And what I read somewhere in the EIE domain on wikisocion, having the need to initiate contact, but wouldn't mind if some else does it. Still I do feel this responsibility, to talk to the loners, get them in the group. Maybe that is upbringing as well, as it's what my mum would also do, take care of everyone. If I wouldn't be such a unconfident wuss I would argue my parents would be a ESFj and INTj couple, On the other hand sometimes their relation looks really incompatible, then again they are together for a long time. At times my dad can act a lot like he's of Gamma world, uninviting and relentless to those whom he doesn't like, maybe this is true as most of the time his analysis of someone is correct. And my mum is definitely so not a structured at all, although she has discipline and perseverance, maybe is the F that allows her to be out of her mind. Still I can't place quadra values on home, I guess the home situation is difficult to do? As what makes it your home makes it so integrated into your type. Always there is good food, comfort, attention, and no one is required to sit in a Beta group, on the other hand, heavy stuff is avoided or shelved under a lot of shallowness, there is energy albeit no direction, when the emptiness is too large, the party starts over and fill it up again.
In the midst of high school that whole shallow atmosphere has driven me to start reading and do a lot of more spiritual (I guess Delta way) stuff. But on the other hand I guess being in a bad school situation, I needed some grounding, put my stuff back into one container.
OK, this is going to be the last part, but there is this movie called Fanaa (2006) there is this one scene / music part as it is (a modern) bollywood named Chanda Chamke, that scene is basically me being little being with my mum. And my dad, no he doesn't sing. Some time ago we watched the movie together..she and me were both just like wow :-)
Thanks anyone for reading, posting, thanks a lot.
Last edited by remer; 09-04-2013 at 12:05 PM.
Reason: spelling/grammar you know, help me out here ^^
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