You're an all right guy. You can act gay when you want to, see you lightened up and said wohoo with an exclamation point! We're probably more alike than different you're just a top. Or something.

(i like to top too actually but not as often)

I over intellectualize too just not with the same ego obviously, it sucks. Part of me just wants to be this pure animal, this like pure beast with no mind.

No you don't lack empathy actually the problem is you have so much of it that you are sadistic. Somebody whining = not a plea for empathy, they just need to release. It has nothing to do with like mental states or intentions. It's like a sort of orgasm.