Quote Originally Posted by DJ Arendee View Post
Yeah that seems to be it. I can't pretend I enjoy anything, this is what is physically impossible for me. If I hate what I do, it shows. Kinda sucks, I wish I could become more invisible but I suspect that's one of those things that cannot be changed. I've had other gymnastics instructors come in and talk about how much the job sucks and I've gotten a little frustrated at them before. I guess its just hard to understand because most of the people i spoke to in the military were cynnical, bitter, and generally miserable looking all the time so I feel like its acceptable behavior.
Yeah. Ideally, you wouldn't have to pretend, at least not for extended periods of time. You generally want to enjoy what you do. Ignoring your inner inclinations long-term is a set-up for misery and perhaps psychological issues later down the line. Most of us have professions that we cordon off as things we'd probably never entertain as career choices. For me, that would be sales. I am terrible at making people buy things they don't need, and I can't imagine what sorts of things a manager would spout at me at a team meeting if I didn't make quota, lol. Probably worse than needing an attitude adjustment. It seems like the military was just the wrong place for you. So long as this isn't happening with every employer, in every work setting, and so long as you HAVE found something you enjoy doing for a living and can put up with, I don't think it's necessarily deeper than... those were the wrong jobs for you. Sometimes people end up with a string of bad fits in a row.