I think in densities and forms, colors and motion, and low-herz sounds that usually accompany the aforementioned motion, images of I've seen or read, and on a rare occasion tastes. Verbalizing all of this is rather straining. I always feel like it's the rate-limiting step since this process runs much faster than I can put it into words and explain it to others. Back in school I had a very lukewarm relationship with any classes where most of the work hinged on writing compositions.
When I am falling asleep, in those few minutes spent between conscious and unconscious states, this mental imagery begins to dissipate and all I can sense in these brief instances are these formless matrices that hold no meaning but elicit simple positive or negative binary responses. This seems to be what's going on in the background of what I am consciously aware of when awake. Neither words nor consciousness can enter there.


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