I think in words. a lot. most of the time in 1st person. sentences. try to reword sentences before i say them...
sometimes when I'm really upset i'll try to imagine my life in 3rd person so i can try to be objective...it's almost impossible.
Sometimes visual.
Think of Ally McBeal... sometimes my mind will have visions of those types when I'm pissed/angry/amused.
or memories. flashback. an imagine worst-case scenario scene might play out (but it'll be like a lightening fast dream, it'll usually be in first person pov).
I don't listen to my gut very often. It's usually a nudge, a feeling of "don't do this..." but not in words, just in a knowing. But I think my gut is a scaredy cat and tells me "no" on everything so I stopped listening to it. Or I'm just a scaredy cat... and force myself to face every single frickin thing i'm scared of. which is counterproductive.
My usual way of doing something I feel a strong urge not to is a)common sense...most people wouldn't do what i'm about to do. b)what's the worse that can happen? fuck it, try it again maybe it'll turn out differently or 3) and then usually do it anyways... and feel a sense of relief of "Well atleast I know" but also huge disappointment in myself of when am I going to grow the fuck up and learn not to do this..again.
So now I try to rationalize a lot...but someone pointed out recently that anything can be rationalized into being a good choice. and so i've made a lot of bad choices but gave myself a lot of leeway because it sounded good to me. so. that leaves me going on my feelings which i can't imagine being that great
of an idea because well.. my feelings change often. and usually change based on my rationalizing of an action or event.
so Ive no idea what to do. I'm trying to learn from people around me but what works for them doesn't always work for me. so maybe I am falling back onto my gut.
i also like to practice what im' going to say to someone outloud if it's important to me.. or a big topic.


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