I definitely want to learn more about myself, and learn my weak sides to be better individual in general.

I would probably say things I can't bring myself to say to people close to me. "What would become of you in death?" I'm not english native and to be honest I have hard time understanding how to exactly answer this, I wouldn't mind you putting it in different words. Now i'd answer nothing, because you assumed world would be blown up lol. Is that question possibly something like, what kind of person would I be when I would face fact that i'd die in hour?