And isn't alcohol a legal drug...?
lol MS right after posting, I thought about that

and yes... benzos are scary as hell. I initially resisted when my psychiatrist suggested xanax, but he assured me that it's a very low dosage, the lowest possible (.25 mg), 1/16th of the highest legal dosage. I still don't like the idea... but it's better than chest pain and difficulty breathing and numb/tingling hands and feet and that out of body I-don't-know-where-I-am feeling.