Originally Posted by
dolphin
THANK YOU. Now it's clear that Se is not directly related to physical aggression. It has to do with effectiveness. When you want something, it simply isn't always effective to be a blundering brute. Perhaps this sort of thing was confused with persistence. But there is a lot more to persistence of will and a singularity of goal than pounding your opponent with your funny little fucking stone fist. And you're right, to value something you have to know the feel of it's absence. Without the disparity, without the distinction, the presence of it is meaningless. So you set a goal, and break yourself against it, and your shin splints, your pain, the way he lay among his denim blankets, groaning in pain, that paid off, those weak legs gradually become thick bones, and now he squints his eyes in the sun, and runs, like an animal, calves tensing. It's beautiful. But I think it's easier to attribute willpower to that. It's less easy to put your finger on the goal when your brain bleeds little ribbons of blood and the wounds don't close. And with so much struggling, you reach what you had looked for..and it isn't there. Your goal is gone. Well guess what. It's not a 1 + 1 equation. Now the struggling changed you. And it's something you've got to live with.
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