
Originally Posted by
aixelsyd
Well, as for the forum, I don't think a lot of people would care that much if most of us stayed or left. It's just a forum. As far as what matters, I do agree that sometimes you need to strive to stand out as somebody. Believing in your own significance is important so long as it does not become arrogance. I guess you got to acknowledge your own individuality and your passions and just go after it but not to be afraid of showing others it as well as not being afraid to do and pursue things behind closed doors, too.
Sometimes I feel the opposite of how you feel. I feel like it all has to come to the fore at once. That's not good, either, and can really have nasty after effects such as a sense of despondency, like you are just an actor hiding behind a mask, reading off of a script that everyone puts in front of you without really being yourself and speaking your own words. I think this is something which is just a repercussion of this online world where it feels like you are expected to hide behind a mask of a username and accompanied text.
But I guess it is not that different in the real world, if you want to call it that.
Just some of my own musings.
There are always options out there and being noticed isn't always great, especially when it means you have expectations that you have to live up to. I feel like I get this all of the time with people I perform for. Sometimes you end up longing for the quieter days where you felt like you didn't matter and could just find enjoyment in simple little things without giving two shits what some idiot you know thinks who could give two shits less if you lived or not in their little world.
Life is short, we all will be dissatisfied. I have no real words to say about your state, but I think there is a genius inside all of us, maybe even in that G.W. Bush idiot, but still. But as far as the forum goes, I am pretty sure a lot of us noticed your absence, but do people really say anything? I guess not.
So maybe it is somewhat type related, primarily in having weak (and unvalued) Se among other things. But maybe there are other ways to make an impact, and that, imo, is by being true to yourself, beliefs, and convictions. You don't have to go waving individuality and beliefs around like a raging warrior. Great impact can be made by the quiet but clever and sincere individual, and I don't mean sincere in the communications style sincere devised by whoever, but just being honest.
I suppose there are ways of being bulldozed and swept away by a rushing tide or else braving against it to make an impact, but being passive in Daoistic sense can also lend one to not be swept away and still stand as someone, making an impact but without making a big commotion of it, either.
So I don't think it is as type related as some might think. It's all a state of mind and a changeable one at that.
I'm just spewing my ideas and not advice if I can help it, but I guess that's how it sounds at times.
Maybe it's the dynamic in me, but things change, people change, in some ways. Opportunity to growth is everywhere. Have a little faith and it can be seized.