I dreamed that I was in Bangkok to check on and distribute funds for a project. I met with the major managers and paid out portions of the fixed budget, then started meeting with smaller scale project leaders. After paying the last guy, and with the budget money almost gone, he introduced me to a woman who had a small but worthwhile project, but she was asking for more money than I thought the project would yield, and I told her so.
She said that the project was really worthwhile, and she’d sleep with me for the difference. I wasn’t morally against this, but I felt that the money would have to come out of my personal funds, because a tax audit would reveal the misuse of company funds. (What’s wrong with this isn’t the pay-for-sex part, which wasn’t important, but rather intentionally funding a project that wouldn’t return a profit to the company.)
This seems like a Gamma dream to me.
It may have been inspired by the fact that I’m currently trying to figure out how to justify making a major purchase for the company which I want to do but which has a high likelihood of not producing a short term profitable return.
Goddammit, I want to do it.
Goddammit, it’s spending money for which I can’t see a clear financial return.
I could spend my personal funds, but this goes against my principles.
I’m probably going to make the purchase with company funds and ignore the hit and work harder to make this profitable somehow.