Your dreams are like really weird anime, and you have massively repressed sexual urges.
Your dreams are like really weird anime, and you have massively repressed sexual urges.
Also, why am I almost never myself? Recently at least, it seems the only times where I'm myself are if it involves Isha. What does that mean, too?
Probably because you suffered pain or a perceived disadvantage at some point early in life as a result of some aspect of you that is specifically male. Could just be massive garden-variety castration anxiety, especially if you are a very physically sensitive person. Are you circumcised?
My mother. I don't think I was immune to her burning anti-male crusade. And then I had Dad on my case for being "too girly", so shit. Any predictions about what that kind of effect that would have? And probably a lot of the electronic guardian reinforcing lots of "men are dicks" messages (why I came out as a sensitive, new-age guy doormat, because TV told me it was a good thing that at least would not make half the population hate me (this was before I had the epiphany that it's never possible to have NOBODY irritated or discontent)). Is 9~12 too late to be "early in life"?
Nope. Though there was this incident where a doctor wanted to get rid of this little band of too-tight skin back when I was eight-ish. By that stage I was operating entirely out of the assumption that any time I said "No" it would be totally ignored*, so I was confused for the longest time, wondering when I'd get dragged off to hospital to get whatever he wanted done to it done (or rather, being really confused when I *didn't* get dragged off to a hospital or wherever, and wondering when it was going to happen).
*Can I be E9 yet?
Kids think like kids, and grown-ups forget that
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No, dreams where I'm "making do" with myself have me anatomically unaltered. I'm fairly sure I know what those mean, though, so they aren't overly relevant to any sort of discussion.
On a totally unrelated note, there was this one time involving an empty elevator, and I only just got what the pun was.
when i really need to pee in the morning i dream i really need to pee. ? ? ? ? ? whats it all mean
asd
I dream of Genie.
No, that's actually one of the most impressionable ages as far as the early stages of forming your self-identity.
Based on what you're saying about your parents, etc., it definitely does sound like you've got some issues with your masculine side being repressed. Your subconscious takes that literally, and produces the dreams.
My completely amateur psychologist recommendation would be to take a martial arts class or something. You can't get comfortable with your masculine strength/aggression without actually getting out there and using it. But again, I'm not a certified psychologist or anything, so what do I know?
Quaero Veritas.
I'm not a professional psychologist either, but ime working out and physically activity usually does wonders for your masculine side. Not necessarily by making you bigger or more imposing - the mix of concentration and testosterone just gives you more energy and confidence - that's applicable in any sphere of life, not just romance.
last night i dreamed that i lived in ireland, and when i woke in the morning i debated whether i had lived in ireland for a period of 6 months. I REALLY think I am losing it, I was so convinced, i wanted to call my mom and ask if I am forgetting things. Honestly, I woke up from the dream and was like, god, have I had an episode of amnesia in my life at some point? When did I live in Ireland? The images of Ireland were vivid to the point that i remembered them in detail enough that it seemed I could have been there. Also I forgot whether I was 23 or 24 yesterday. God. What the hell is going on with me?
asd
Because you want a female, and the only person available is you, so you make do?
@OP: That reminds me of the dream when I had a telephone for my torso. Anyhow, I see a relationship to how you left Alpha and some of us didn't like to see you go... we keep trying to call out your fun side, but that's not how you want to be; so as we try to puncture your mask - the mask that you consider your identity (for every identity is really a mask) - you feel that you yourself are being punctured.
I was mainly thinking of Dolphin, I guess... it doesn't make quite as much sense when I say it about you, but it's still decent.
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