My typeup for discussion

[strrrng]

Maintain myself? Hard to explain. I'm looking for some kind of internal harmony. I want to understand and be in balance with myself and then I try to figure out how I can bring that understanding into something that could function in the real world.

This is pretty good evidence for valuing. Could you elaborate?

[strrrng]

Balance... I have a lot of internal battles. I often feel like I need to please people and I have problems not choosing what others want over my own wishes. It has caused me to make the wrong choices a lot of times. I should chose what I want, but I end up being "nice" instead, and of course that causes inner pain. Now, I look for a way to balance that in the real world, so I don't bend too much.

You said you're a 1? I'd say this sounds more 9'ish (possibly also 2 or 6).