bee, you do the same kind of insane, obsessive things I have done. If I'm reading this right and you actually do end up acting like me, you'll also end up making yourself look like a fool, convince yourself of all kinds of things, keep it up for a long time, until finally you realize many things, only to forget them shortly afterwards, and keep going in a cycle of weird craziness for a very long time until something shows you who each of you are and what's actually happening.
Then, you'll wake up, look around, feel foolish, laugh at yourself, and finally move on. If you're as bad as I am, it'll take a number of years, if you're smarter, hopefully less. And if you're way smarter than me, it'll never become a problem to begin with.
I'm going to make some horribly assumptive assumptions
, and if I'm way off base with what you're trying to do, my deepest apologies:
If you're trying to get his attention, forget it. If he wanted to give it, you'd already have it, in abundance. Stop chasing. He wanted to mess with you because you are attractive but were safely married and thus unavailable. He was yanking you about, sending your journal entries isn't going to do jack shit but show him how deep his hook sunk. And if you're doing what I think you're doing you've already come up with several excuses for why this isn't the case. He's not ENTj, it's hardly type related, and you're not going to be able to get revenge, attention, or anything else with him. The best you can probably manage is a tenuous friendship. If he had any kind of character he would have already begged forgiveness not only from you, but from Nick as well, but more likely a man of character wouldn't have acted how he did in the first place. (that is assuming I have a clue what I'm talking about - if this isn't the situation and result I think it is, then I have no idea what's going on
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